I’m on a bit of a staycation this week. Holiday at home basically.
The first 3 days have been non stop out and about at parks in the sunshine and walking. Spending time with my grandson and enjoying him. One day was with a man I rather like a lot, having a picnic.
Now the man. Well I’ve spoken about him on my coffee chats as a bit of a bread crumbing man.
ie I have absolutely no idea where I stand and yet at the same time am made to feel in his presence as though I matter. Crumbs of moments but never the full slice. Texts are a bit like that too. He sends one and I answer with lots of info. But I get one line if I’m lucky. And no he isn’t “getting any” before you even come to that conclusion.
I’m not sure if I remember how dating works anymore to be honest. In fact I feel like such a noob that part of me is not sure I want to bother with it all.
The whole playing the dating game is something I feel I left behind in my 20’s and at this stage in life I just want to know if it’s worth all the bother? Really is that too much to expect?
I’m contemplating not playing the game, as much as I really like him. It’s a feeling of there’s too much space between those crumbs that makes me feel that I’m too one crumb away from a slice.
That’s too much space!
By the way I’ve not been wearing a bikini in RL. Because, really that look would not be fit to see.
The picnic view:-
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Credits:-
Thalassa crochet bikini from KiB Designs at the Designer Showcase
Realness hair from Stealthic
Glazed lipstick from Beaumore
HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA
Eline skin in beige AMARA
Classic mesh body from Legacy
Image courtesy using Flickr
Sandy beach wood pose from Secret Poses
Isabelle Cheren 