Every day,I think about dying

About disease, starvation,

Violence, terrorism, war,

The end of the world…

It helps keep my mind off things

Quote by Roger McGough

It made me put things in perspective 

Its time

I made a big decision yesterday and left the workplace Union.

I’ve been a rep since 2009 and along the way have become increasingly more stressed with the role which I juggle with my day job and any study I am doing.

How do I feel this morning?

Like I made the best decision ever!!!!!

No more frantic calls from people just as I’m about to sit down and eat my dinner at night. No more living with the knowledge that  I know when people are going to lose their jobs and knowing that basically there isn’t anything I truly can do about it.

I hate that. I hate knowing at the end of the day Im powerless to actually evoke a change to that.

So this morning as I sit here on a bus imagining I’m really sat on that boat , I’m relieved

Have a jolly good day .


Will be updated when I get home to my PC.

CATWA Gwen head

Maitreya Lara body

Skin by the Skinnery

Outfit by Mutresse called Polly found at Collabr88

Hair is Cinnamon B by EXXess 

Only a matter of time

Im  laying on a beach on a tropical island and gaze at shimmering sunshine whilst drinking a pina colada and gazing at my hunky man as he walks out of the water towards me. His chest rippling and the water running down his skin.
Then I wake up.

Fifteen days and I have an essay due and four assignments.The pressure is on  right now.

It’s stress but I guess those adrenalin rushing forms of stress which if I put my mind to it, I’ll get over.

I don’t smoke by the way, but if I did, I’m guessing I’d look like my avatar.

Again, I then wake up….





Credits :-

Gwen Mesh head by CATWA

Lara body by Maitreya


Top is Winnie by *Just BECAUSE*

Christy dark skin by Lara Hurley

Cinnamon A hair by eXxEsS Hair


Cigarette is from some animated bit of furniture I received along the way but cannot recall.

Saturday sunshine

All is good in the world and no bad news to be heard. 

But that’s maybe because I made a active decision I would avoid seeing what the press had to say for one weekend. Two days of living in my ignorant bliss is definitely called for.

Gorgeous sunshine, smiles and seeing good friends and family. 

That’s what it’s all about and everyone needs those few moments of escape.

I am lucky I can do this. Many of us are. But people caught up in conflicts and disasters don’t get those few moments to choose from.

Cherish those moments because they truly are incredibly precious.

Bibi  head by CATWA

Lara mesh body by Maitreya

Mayu hair by Argrace

Paradise eyes by IKON

Outfit  found at Collabor88

URLs added later when I’m at my PC.


She pouts.

It’s Thursday and I’m as always on my bus ride to work. 

I’m due to spend most of my day in union related meetings. I’ve decided this cannot possibly be, as I’m far from being really awake today.

I’m actually rarely that alert anyhow due to a low B12 deficiency which can affect memory as well as the zing of being awake.

I’ve been known to fall asleep while awake. Go figure in that.

The worst experience I had of this was when I printed off a form to send out in the post. I pressed 2 to be sent. Well when I got to the printer and released for printing, it just kept coming.

Seemingly I had in fact pressed 200!

What’s the problem with that , it’s only work, you ask?

Well our dept is charged 2p for every print and then as individuals our print volume is monitored. So you can imagine Liz printing 200 pages would beggar many questions.

B12 deficiency is something I had never given any thought to. It can’t be resolved by a vitamin pill from the chemist. 

I had to start a course of injections for a number of weeks every few days to raise my levels, then once s month, and now every three months for the rest of my life.

I’m expecting dementia because my understanding is that this can be related.

I mean, before they realised what was going on, I had suddenly one day forgotten how to put a duvet in its cover to make a bed. I stood crying for ages because I wondered why I couldn’t work it out . I am fine now, but that actually scared the hell out of me.  That was just over a year ago and now I remember to put my knickers on in the morning and make sure I catch the right bus. Although I’ve been prone to putting odd shoes on. 

I suffer both low B12 and Fibromyalgia. The two together are a beatch, but I don’t complain as life could be much much worse and I’m truly thankful I don’t have too much to whine about.

Pleasure to share and for all those with same conditions. I feel your pain, literally.

Bibi head by CATWA

Maitreya Lara mesh body

Wasabi pills hair

Lara Hurley Christy Skin

Eyes are CATWA

Outfit by Blueberry

Links later…,

Budget like a housewife

I’m staring out the bus right now and wondering about this day ahead.

I’ve been called into meetings about restructures so many times in the past year. Average redundancy is around 20-40  each time.

That’s a hell of a lot of skills lost and people who will have mortgages and families to worry about. Two of these people in the pool could potentially be a couple. If they both lose their jobs? Doesn’t bear thinking about the devastation that family would suffer.

This is the reality.

This is happening everywhere and has been ongoing a few years now. But seems to be increasing.

The more people you lose from the public sector the less capable the services become. It’s a false economy slashing jobs to save money. 

The wise would have been preparing in the good times for the bad times. That’s what every healthy wise budget person does. But of course the government? 

Well I’ll leave that thought with you while I laugh at their unwise highly paid financial decision makers.

Budget like a housewife and you may just get it!

Where’s my Pikachu

 Because I wanted to know what all the fuss was about. I downloaded that app to my iphone!

Ok, I am not a game player on phones, but had to admit I could see the addiction to run around like a lunatic catching pretend nothing’s in the virtual sphere while looking like a twit.

Apparently if I walked to the river there was one in the river!

Now call me wise, call me sensible. There is no way I’m dropping myself in the river to catch a critter that isn’t real, that no one else can see but me.

Come on!!!!

My daughters partner who is 27, is incredibly addicted.

He suddenly dashed out the front door last week, because there was a Pokemon in the garage. Not his garage, the one that sells petrol!

My word words cannot express my head thoughts. Ha ha

As I sit on the bus right now and there are approximately another 10 people.

Every single one of them is sat staring at their phones.

Are they all playing Pokemon?

Let’s catch a Pikachu….




Ken Kimona by ~tres blah~ via Luxe Box

Mena Hair   by MINA

Lola denim shorts Blueberry

Glastonbury boots !Aphorism!

Gwen Mesh head CATWA

Lara Mesh body Maitreya

Paradise Eyes IKON




Vamp colour.jpg

Returning home

It’s always great to come back home.

Well, my thoughts right now as I’m on a bus headed to work.

Not really had much rest at all at the weekend as I had the little one stay as well.

Unfortunately when he comes to stay I can’t get any law course work done and right now I’m on this bus thinking hells bells I’ve fallen behind and somehow need to turn this around between now and next weekend as he comes to stay again.

The work load is actually ramping up now and where I was in that lull of feeling confident that I was ahead and keeping up? It’s now not so.

Juggling a full time job as well it’s just chaos.

I really respect people who manage to do this and appear cool calm and collected because I’d like that facade right now too.

Despite this, I had a great time with little Mason. He is growing so well and really coming on leaps and bounds. 

I taught him to “slide some skin” which he finds hilarious.

So all you need to say is slide some skin Mason and he high gives you.

The little things that make life so wonderful.