Where do I begin!!!! I really don’t know. Other than to say 2021 may also personally for me a bit of a bittersweet year. Already it’s kind of been a sarcastic comedy of sorts.
I touched not so long ago in one of my YouTube coffee blogs that there were issues with my hair. Since Covid hit I noticed a patch of my hair thinning and disappearing. Just at the very time I was accepted as a curly girl ambassador for Boucleme hair products. Incredibly bad timing.
All the hair has disappeared from my arms and legs . All this since lockdown.
Yes I considered it may be due to high stress but today I was seen by a consultant who has examined my records and my scalp etc. Verdict is female pattern baldness.
So it could stay as it is now or gradually get worse. Either way it’s a huge knock to my soul as what is most noticed about me has always been my curly hair.
But, I’m not prepared to give into the internal tears inside me. After all it’s not killing me. It just means one day I may be buzz cutting it all off.
Until then I shall crack on with a smile and learn to accept that I’m still fortunate and need to get a grip. There are damn sight worse things in life.
I still have minge hair, albeit it looks like a ninja head now!
I rather fondly call this my Ted talk. More so as I was in this video expressing a number of thoughts and so only watch if you have the patience to listen. Otherwise I seriously wouldn’t bother.
It’s cathartic to talk and so I do.
I will however be honest I cut out quite a chunk of what I spoke about as after doing so I thought nahhh it’s stuff I don’t need to share. But then I am quite a sharer as that’s what keeps me sane in life.
There are times we all need to share thoughts or moments with just someone. These days due to everything I just find myself sharing in my blog or in my Coffee talks.
Today’s I call the Ted talk because it felt like I was relaying something and well why not. Ted I’m sure won’t mind me using his name.
It’s after midnight and I’ve been beavering away for hours today filming things for the upcoming week.
I’m a little in a corner feeling that I want to do something new and different. I just can’t put my finger on it as to what.
Do you ever get those moments? I also am having a lot of self doubt right now and asking myself many questions about the value of the things I do. Are they worth doing? Am I bored? Am I tired?
I can’t quite say. I just know that my light is dimming and I actually feel very much alone. I did a Ted talk today which I was going to upload tonight. But I froze on the upload button. The overwhelming feeling that I’m just simmering away sometimes makes me want to turn up the heat and see what happens.
For now though I’ll just lay my head to sleep and dream of my next adventure.
I remember when the first set of Alexander Chung dances came out. I literally near enough wet myself in excitement to be part of all this real life influencer meets virtual reality. I am still part of it and Jonny the owner of Paragon Dance Animations really has inspired me so much about believing all things can be possible in a virtual world if you just go ahead and do it.
I am the videographer for the Paragon Dances you will see on the Paragon Facebook and Flickr pages. It has taken me a long time to really learn a lot about syncing up reality and virtual and I love learning. I started with Jonny 2 years ago and am still by his side. (He may eventually have to dust me over as I am not going anywhere)
Im not into wild effects etc when making dance videos because I am not selling a song track. I am showcasing a dance move and the song track is just the one I may use at the time for my own videos.
I remain loyal to that ideal because to me the value in a dance is actually seeing it move and how it can really even tell the story of a song even though it may not be the story to be told initially.
Today we have Alex Hip Hop dances in Second Life and below you will see the video. I am only crediting the dances in this blog as I need to be true to this post that its about the dance and not about the fashion or the music. Never mind our Dexy Midnight runners look. I kinda love it (pssst from Mossu). Just enjoy. By the way you can read all about Alex in the credits and links under the video.
01 to 03 – Originally choreographed to “No Guidance” by Chris Brown ft. Drake. Tempo = 93.00 BPM
04 to 05 – Originally choreographed to “Privacy” by Chris Brown. Tempo = 97.00 BPM
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◘ Choreographer for Backstreet Boys “Don’t Go Breaking My Heart” MV, Choreographer for DJ Snake “Lauv-A Different Way” MV, Becky G. “Break A Sweat” MV, Jesse McCartney “Punch Drunk” MV., Disney’s “Raven’s Home” Season 3. ◘ Choreographer for corporate brands: Bose, Honda, Danceon, Dark Horse Wine, Panda Express ◘ Dancer for Sean Kingston (Live in Edmonton) ◘ Dance Captain – Unity in Diversity (France, Germany, Switzerland Tour) ◘ Dancer for B2K (Live in Vancounver), America’s Best Dance Crew Tour (Live in Edmonton) ◘ Choreographer/Director/Dancer – NXG Dance Company – World of Dance Las Vegas (2018) 1st place, World of Dance Los Angeles 2015 (1st place), Canada Hip Hop Championships 2014 (1st place), World Hip Hop Championships (semifinalist), World of Dance Hawaii 2013 (1st place) ◘ Judge/Instructor for “Soulplex” Dance Competition and Convention (Germany) ◘ Taught master classes in England, Israel, Mexico, Germany, China, Switzerland, France, Australia, New Zealand, Belgium, the Netherlands, and across North America. ◘ Featured Choreographer at the Millenium Dance Complex in North Hollywood. ◘ 380000+ YouTube subscribers with 72 million+ views.
Hump day! Middle of the week and we get excited as the weekend is coming.
I always find myself thrilled to see the weekend on the horizon. Though I do have to question why given life is 7 days a week not 2. Why look forward to only those days.
This week I’m good health wise. All things slowly going back into place which I’m glad about. A lesson I’ve learned is things can happen in a blink that can change your life and we should all be more appreciative of each day we have it.
That sounds maudlin but I don’t mean it that way. I just feel at times we tend to not really think and just assume each step will always be a given.
So my avatar today is in New York City pretending she is so cool she can stand in the middle of the road.
Clearly in reality she would be risking her mortality. However virtually a bus could hit her and she would jump up like super gal and carry on.