I’m on my lunch break in the reality of life, eating leftovers and watching a bit of some dodgy film on Sony movies before I wander back to my desk. The sun is shining.
Film is about some murderous dude who seems like the good guy but clearly isn’t. Right now he is attempting to kill the heroine but she is putting up a good fight.
Woah and like a good film she wins the day.
I’d love to be a heroine in my own film but no murder involved.
Today I quite fancy a balloon ride somewhere up there in the sky. No particular destination in mind just as long as it is sunny, safe and the only people allowed are reasonable minded people with a positive view to share.
I see so much negativity out in the world right now that I wish for a magic balloon to take me away.
Though I know, that’s never going to happen. We all know that magic balloons only fly in our minds and in reality we have to face what is real and daft.
I’m just having my lunch and treated myself to a hot cross bun, tea and an orange. Rather simple and unexciting I know. but tasty none the less.
I hope you all have a dream balloon as well in your minds. If you do? Let me know and we can do a race to see who gets to the magical destination first!
I’m just chilling in my real little world and enjoying the peace. I’m not in SL tonight as frankly I don’t feel like it.
Some days reality is deserving of my attention especially when the sun comes out like it did today.
Plus I’m going to give it a break while I go SHEIN mad online. Seriously I’m in purchase mode from there and loving the prices and the quality is pretty good too.
I’ve gone earring mad tonight and treated myself to some T-shirt’s and a few dresses for the summer.
Then it was Amazon’s turn where I went wacko on some gel nail polish and body butters.
So I look forward to my self treats as to be honest I very rarely do them and I feel I should more often. So that’s all I’m saying today because I’ve got the rest of this lovely evening to enjoy and that I shall.
Films night! I’m up late absorbing fantasy.
By the way Saturday Sale is in and today’s number is from Entice.
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Brand new Day dress from Entice for the Saturday Sale in dots and Yellow Floral
I really cannot do a tutorial to save my life. I get by in Second Life on a wing and a prayer but if I am going to do a tutorial its with my lovely Thelma at the helm.
Short and sweet with the odd moment of nuts just to make it less boring and you wont notice how awkward I truly am.
Todays one is actually something so simple but many people don’t know. I didn’t know till I met Rosie, seriously 10 years on!!!
By the way the outfit Serasim 1/2 price at their discount outlet.
Video:-
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Circe dress from Belle Epoque at the SeraSim half price!!
I’ve danced on many a chair and pole in Second Life. But seriously none like this!!
It’s no secret I’m very partial to anything Jonny from Paragon brings into Second Life, after all I work with him.
But, I do so with a passion for the quality of what I get to work with and this latest chair dance is pure sass!!
I’ve actually recorded 3 versions of this dance. One is this, the other is a different feel lighting and the third. Well that one is far more raunchier than I usually produce.
That one I will upload to Flickr because it certainly cannot go onto YouTube at all.
I’ll do that in the next few days. Then re link back in this blog. for now though you can have the tamer version. Enjoy……
Funnily I took this picture a good week ago. I just a few moments ago looked out my window and I’m sure I saw a bit of a mist. I rubbed my eyes and it disappeared.
It’s midweek and my loss of motivation is real. I’ve tried hard to get it but at every turn there appears to be brick walls that stop me or rather influence my mindset.
I know everyone is going through the similar cycle of up and down emotions, but in the moment we often feel alone. Technically I am, right now bar the two cats laying by me on the sofa.
I started this crazy idea on my RL Instagram. Videos of my journey to routine and normality.
Well……..I’d say I’ve got a long way to go. Failed within two days that self motivational idea.
Am I giving up? Hell no. I love a good video chat to myself so I’ll try and do it. Hopefully it spurs me on but maybe prompts someone else to do the same.
It’s late and I really should be asleep right now. However chances of that is zero to none.
I have so much on my mind right now that it’s almost near full. Can a mind get full? I think it can. Mines full of a lot of old junk that swishes around when anything new falls in to upset the equilibrium.
I once saw a clairvoyant and she scared me by how she could read me. People think they can and assume they can, but I’m more complex than that really.
People only see what I allow them to see. The rest is guarded by a steel vault that only I know the code to. No one has ever cracked it. The person who does, god help them.
The best description of me is the one the clairvoyant gave me.
I’m an island. I’m alone in the sea and I only truly rely on me. To be honest I’ve been my own guide all my life.
Right now though I really wish my island me would try and connect to the mainland. I fear that if I float out any further to sea I’ll never come back.
I’m currently sat on the sofa (nothing new there) watching some B grade film which to be fair is utterly rubbish but none the less I’m absorbed somewhat. You know the someone was killed Miss Marple type of mystery. But not as good as Miss Marple.
I have noticed that I do watch some utter rubbish lately. I’m not sure if it’s because things are on repeat or frankly that’s all we are getting. Hard to say really.
I’m waiting for season 11 of the Walking Dead and the millionth series of Outlander, I’ve forgotten which one to watch out for already.
Truth be told I’m in skank mode currently and just need to get dressed and go do my hair and maybe just maybe brave the outside world. Ice and chill but glorious sunshine.
In this outfit I hear you ask? No. But in the virtual you can do whatever you choose.
Saturday Sale shopping!!!!
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Summer baby lingerie from Entice in the SATURDAY Sale
I’m not really catching a train but I do wonder what that feels like now. Not having caught one for over a year!
Honestly what a different experience that would be right now.
I’m having an odd day here in reality. I applied for a job. In my own work team I will add. I answered the one question on the application and was told yesterday I wasn’t shortlisted because I didn’t answer the question!
The question simply was a question the reason for applying. But I’m told that I should have been referring to the job description answering that question. But it didn’t say that. Question was simply reason for applying. I knew something was wrong because I had great difficulties in the application with freezing connections and in the end had to log into it via chrome.
Fact is when I applied there did not appear this box that tells you what you should also include. In fact I even said to a colleague on the day I would have expected it to be there, so uploaded my CV too just in case.
Anyhow it turned out all a mess and it is as it is.
What I take away from moments like this, is my strong sense that things always happen for a reason.
I’m more than able to do the job I know and I don’t have any self doubt about that BUT maybe I’m to do something else!!
So for the first time in 16 years of doing a job I love, I have made the decision to start looking at other things rather than hope my moment will happen because if I’m honest with myself it won’t.
