There isn’t any! Sun that is. Well it’s slowly arriving.
Recently I decided to pay for Tinder 1 month access. Just so for once I could see who actually liked me. If anyone at all.
Well there is a huge list I won’t lie. I’m currently drawing crowds to my profile.
Crowds of no matches to be honest. A few have been masterful scammers. They all work on oil rigs offshore or are military and unfortunately their spouses dead and they’re looking for mama. Sugar mama!!! All ask if you have Kik or what’s app straight at the bat.
All want to know what work you do or if you have a son, does he live with you.
Well I’m bantering away and I’m a stock market broker and own my own businesses and retired at 42!
Sugar mama I am not. The most they’ll get from me is a cuppa tea and a sandwich.
At my age the search for love is a rather bumpy road to travel.
If only in reality I had this look and could run around wearing such an outfit. If only.
Reality can be harsh when we look at ourselves in the mirror and see ourselves. My reality certainly this morning has me looking like the rainbow Good Year blimp. ie I’m wearing this rainbow striped nightie and I’m far from lithe and youthful.
Still, despite that fact I’m ok with my reality. It may cause me angst at times because nothing is perfect, but at least I’m rest assured that I’m the only me.
Now being a me, is certainly unable to be replicated and makes me an individual. I’m good with that.
We should all be good with that. No matter how we look we are all amazing individuals that enrich this planet with our mark of existence.
Where do I begin!!!! I really don’t know. Other than to say 2021 may also personally for me a bit of a bittersweet year. Already it’s kind of been a sarcastic comedy of sorts.
I touched not so long ago in one of my YouTube coffee blogs that there were issues with my hair. Since Covid hit I noticed a patch of my hair thinning and disappearing. Just at the very time I was accepted as a curly girl ambassador for Boucleme hair products. Incredibly bad timing.
All the hair has disappeared from my arms and legs . All this since lockdown.
Yes I considered it may be due to high stress but today I was seen by a consultant who has examined my records and my scalp etc. Verdict is female pattern baldness.
So it could stay as it is now or gradually get worse. Either way it’s a huge knock to my soul as what is most noticed about me has always been my curly hair.
But, I’m not prepared to give into the internal tears inside me. After all it’s not killing me. It just means one day I may be buzz cutting it all off.
Until then I shall crack on with a smile and learn to accept that I’m still fortunate and need to get a grip. There are damn sight worse things in life.
I still have minge hair, albeit it looks like a ninja head now!
I rather fondly call this my Ted talk. More so as I was in this video expressing a number of thoughts and so only watch if you have the patience to listen. Otherwise I seriously wouldn’t bother.
It’s cathartic to talk and so I do.
I will however be honest I cut out quite a chunk of what I spoke about as after doing so I thought nahhh it’s stuff I don’t need to share. But then I am quite a sharer as that’s what keeps me sane in life.
There are times we all need to share thoughts or moments with just someone. These days due to everything I just find myself sharing in my blog or in my Coffee talks.
Today’s I call the Ted talk because it felt like I was relaying something and well why not. Ted I’m sure won’t mind me using his name.
I personally have had a long weekend as I had this week off work. I didn’t get up to much apart from redoing the living room with my daughter and breaking the restrictions to say goodbye to my brother and his family. They are leaving the U.K. tomorrow and returning to Australia.
I feel sad they are going but also happy for them as I know my brother doesn’t want to be here. Hasn’t for a long time.
Yesterday I went on a Thelma and Louise type road trip to the seaside. Only there was no alcohol nor crazy men.
It wasn’t a nice beach but it was a day out and I enjoyed it in good company.
It’s been over a year since I left my local area and yesterday I decided, hell live a little.
That’s my freedom for now and I return back to my fortress. Though I cannot wait for warmer weather as just like my avatar I shall be embracing the sun and it’s warmth.
I do love a good chat. Today despite feeling pretty drained all day. After a half hour catnap after work I felt a little more alive.
So spoke my vlog. To be fair it took me a couple of goes as the first one I prattled on far too long. I made an executive decision to bin that one as frankly it was maybe just a little too real for anyone.
I often try and free mind myself that my channel is a virtual related one. However it’s difficult for me as I’m always being me.
Anyhow if you do choose to listen, I’d suggest a good cuppa as well.
Nia top and shorts from 28LA at the Access Event until the 8th April