It’s after midnight and I’ve been beavering away for hours today filming things for the upcoming week.
I’m a little in a corner feeling that I want to do something new and different. I just can’t put my finger on it as to what.
Do you ever get those moments? I also am having a lot of self doubt right now and asking myself many questions about the value of the things I do. Are they worth doing? Am I bored? Am I tired?
I can’t quite say. I just know that my light is dimming and I actually feel very much alone. I did a Ted talk today which I was going to upload tonight. But I froze on the upload button. The overwhelming feeling that I’m just simmering away sometimes makes me want to turn up the heat and see what happens.
For now though I’ll just lay my head to sleep and dream of my next adventure.
Credits:-
Paris outfit from [RnR] Swag
Peony lipgloss from IVES at the ACCESS Event
Bright rainy backdrop and from Diversion at the ACCESS Event
Lookaway pose from Diversion at the ACCESS Event
HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA
Olivia hair from Kuni at the EQUAL10 Event
Superna Eyeshadow from Velour
Eline skin from AMARA
Reflectice eyes from Amara
Lara mesh body Maitreya
Isabelle Cheren 
“Are they worth doing?”
They fun for you? They spark joy? They worth doing!!!
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Some things don’t. Some things do. Joy at times and other times no.
My one thing is having a housemate. That hugely stifles all of my spark and joy right now.
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Still haven’t abandoned her in the gutter? How long shall this go on?
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I can’t till lockdown eases . Looking at June if all is going to plan. Over here you have to give a 6 month notice to go at the moment. When the planned June comes she gets 1 month and ta ta
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You still haven’t cast her out? Thrown her ass in the gutter? How long shall your suffering go on, how much more can you take?
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To be honest not much more. Only a patent puts up with this BS and I’ve overdone that. Sadly Covid has not been on my side . The other huge factor is she works in my work team. So even been more difficult .
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