Where would you like to be?

Where would you like to be?

I need a good day out in the Tropics somewhere on this planet. Well to be honest a day wouldn’t quite cut it, but maybe 6 months?

Weirdly I would find nothing more wonderful that just a handful of people on a tropical island, just swimming and playing in the sand all day. Barbecues by sunset and long walks within the trees that stretch across the land. Talking, laughing and just being happy with each other. Both family and close friends.

Is it odd I think that I don’t want a good night out with a bunch of people or some concert etc that people are currently looking forward to ? In the last year I have realised that to me its simple things in life are the ones that matter most.

My friend rang me today and asked if I wanted to go out shopping . I declined. To be honest what did I need to shop for? In all seriousness I have learnt that I don’t need a lot of the things I used to buy and I purchased then just out of habit.

Maybe my sense of money is that it can be here today and gone tomorrow, so why am I buying “things” I don’t need or actually really even want.

Im happy with the odd online clothes purchase as I then leave it in a basket, think about it long and hard before I even press the buy button. It allows me to reconsider do I really need that or want it. Usually 8 times out of 10 I remove items from the shopping cart because I realise that I didn’t really want them. I think we are all guilty of shopping without any rationale and just buying things for the heck of it at times.

Today I purchased something I actually did think about and to me is worth it. A book. No not a kindle one, but an actual hard copy real paper one. Old fashioned I know. But I do love a good flip of a page and bending pages down when I come across sections I love.

Funnily it was via a conversation with Drax that I purchased it after he started telling me some of the aspects of the book. Seriously you will have to watch Second Life book club this week as this author is going to be interesting.

I doubt I will have read the entire book by then, but I will be making a good start later today when I relax on my sofa.

Credits:-

Dulce Outfit from Seniha at the EQUAL10 last few days

Higher resolution of photo can be seen here

Bamboo pose and backdrop from Amitie

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Claire Necklace from [Kunst]

Superna Eyeshadow and Wonyoung Lips from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Sunshine and smiles

Sunshine and smiles

There isn’t any! Sun that is. Well it’s slowly arriving.

Recently I decided to pay for Tinder 1 month access. Just so for once I could see who actually liked me. If anyone at all.

Well there is a huge list I won’t lie. I’m currently drawing crowds to my profile.

Crowds of no matches to be honest. A few have been masterful scammers. They all work on oil rigs offshore or are military and unfortunately their spouses dead and they’re looking for mama. Sugar mama!!! All ask if you have Kik or what’s app straight at the bat.

All want to know what work you do or if you have a son, does he live with you.

Well I’m bantering away and I’m a stock market broker and own my own businesses and retired at 42!

Sugar mama I am not. The most they’ll get from me is a cuppa tea and a sandwich.

At my age the search for love is a rather bumpy road to travel.

But………..

Credits:-

Higher resolution of the photo can be found here

Sunni dress (has hud) from Lemony at the ACCESS Event

Jolly pose car from Amitie

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Claire Necklace from [Kunst]

Mousse hair from eXxEsS

Superna Eyeshadow and Wonyoung Lips from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Ted Talk

Ted Talk

I rather fondly call this my Ted talk. More so as I was in this video expressing a number of thoughts and so only watch if you have the patience to listen. Otherwise I seriously wouldn’t bother.

It’s cathartic to talk and so I do.

I will however be honest I cut out quite a chunk of what I spoke about as after doing so I thought nahhh it’s stuff I don’t need to share. But then I am quite a sharer as that’s what keeps me sane in life.

There are times we all need to share thoughts or moments with just someone. These days due to everything I just find myself sharing in my blog or in my Coffee talks.

Today’s I call the Ted talk because it felt like I was relaying something and well why not. Ted I’m sure won’t mind me using his name.

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Credits:-

Athena outfit from Saschas Designs

Lookaway pose from Diversion at the ACCESS Event

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Olivia hair from Kuni at the EQUAL10 Event

Superna Eyeshadow from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

I’m just getting my swag on

I’m just getting my swag on

It’s after midnight and I’ve been beavering away for hours today filming things for the upcoming week.

I’m a little in a corner feeling that I want to do something new and different. I just can’t put my finger on it as to what.

Do you ever get those moments? I also am having a lot of self doubt right now and asking myself many questions about the value of the things I do. Are they worth doing? Am I bored? Am I tired?

I can’t quite say. I just know that my light is dimming and I actually feel very much alone. I did a Ted talk today which I was going to upload tonight. But I froze on the upload button. The overwhelming feeling that I’m just simmering away sometimes makes me want to turn up the heat and see what happens.

For now though I’ll just lay my head to sleep and dream of my next adventure.

Credits:-

Paris outfit from [RnR] Swag

Peony lipgloss from IVES at the ACCESS Event

Bright rainy backdrop and from Diversion at the ACCESS Event

Lookaway pose from Diversion at the ACCESS Event

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Olivia hair from Kuni at the EQUAL10 Event

Superna Eyeshadow from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

I had a round today

I had a round today

It’s well past 9 on here at night in the U.K. and I’m pretty shattered. Today was spent completely moving the whole living room around.

Honestly the dust and toot that collects under a sofa is shocking! It’s a rather huge old corner leather sofa. Never been moved since it arrived in 2013!

Honestly I think we gave ourselves hernias doing it. But the flip side the whole living spaces feels so much nicer with a new seating perspective.

Amazing how doing something different in rearranging your home space can feel so uplifting.

I credit it to feeling like a game of tennis. You go hell for leather doing the deed and once done you feel really rejuvenated.

Credits:-

Megan top and shorts (amazing huds) outfit from Jumo at the April Designer Showcase

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Kiara Hair from DOUX

Superna Eyeshadow from Velour

Maren lipstick from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Tennis Pose from Sari Sari

I thought the sun was going to stay

I thought the sun was going to stay

I’m just going to state the obvious here in the U.K. Just as we are ready for spring and summer. Just as those bikinis start resurfacing, winter is on its way back!

Suddenly the temperatures are going back down for Easter and apparently we could get snow? Seriously!!!

Yesterday was a lovely warm day and today it’s a 10 degree drop. Getting cooler.

I’ve decided that no matter what reality holds at least virtually we can live vicariously how we choose. Later I’m going skiing in a bikini!

Credits:-

Surf city bikini from Entice

Summer mesh hair from Wasabi

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Superna HD Eyeshadow from Velour

Ingrid lipstick from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Chat time

Chat time

I do love a good chat. Today despite feeling pretty drained all day. After a half hour catnap after work I felt a little more alive.

So spoke my vlog. To be fair it took me a couple of goes as the first one I prattled on far too long. I made an executive decision to bin that one as frankly it was maybe just a little too real for anyone.

I often try and free mind myself that my channel is a virtual related one. However it’s difficult for me as I’m always being me.

Anyhow if you do choose to listen, I’d suggest a good cuppa as well.

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Credits:-

Nia top and shorts from 28LA at the Access Event until the 8th April

Way up hair from Vanity

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Kinky Eyeshadow from Velour

Monica HD lipstick from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

By The pool

By The pool

The photo has nothing to do with my blog.

I mean I’m not right now standing outside wearing panties and pasties. Heaven forbid. It’s rather cold!!!

It’s my lunch break and I’m actually sitting on my sofa drinking tea and eating lunch.

The sight is track pants, sweater and looking like I’ve not really slept in a long while.

It’s Friday and away goes another week of life that I frantically would like to get back and change. As you know I’ve been experiencing a hyperglycaemic period which is something very new to me.

It was very upsetting as well as surreal as no one was listening until I spoke to the 111 service. Yesterday I had blood tests I was told to expect back next week.

They were it appears returned late to the surgery yesterday and a GP had to ring me which he did early this morning.

As a result it confirmed that I was not ok and they’re sending me extra medication. I have to double the lot I take now by slowly introducing in the next week and I’ll be retested in 3 months. If it doesn’t work then it’s injections. Something I really wasn’t expecting.

I don’t want that in my life. I struggle just to do my prick tests so that thought bothers me huge time. So fingers crossed I don’t end up there.

Apparently my reads are worse than when I was initially diagnosed so I have to make huge lifestyle changes.

Covid impact? Yes . Life has been harder during this year and I guess lack of my lifestyle activities has had a huge impact. On top of that the depression I feel about lack of people contact.

I’m not alone I know. So maybe we should set up a friends group for people who struggle?

Anyhow think on that. Back to work I go. Saturday sale!!! Don’t forget.,

Credits:-

Satin Doll ruffle panties and panties from Entice for the Saturday Sale

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Martina hair from DOUX

Kinky Eyeshadow from Velour

Monica HD lipstick from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

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Picture this if you will

Picture this if you will

It’s 10 pm here U.K. time and unlikely I’ll get much sleep tonight.

I’m exhausted to be honest but I also don’t feel I can go to bed. I’ve had a really rubbish few days. Like really rubbish. I could have said days ago, Sunday, yesterday but I didn’t.

I try and just crack on as nothing worse than a whiner.

So I had the vaccine on the 12 March and ached a few days like an old woman. Job done all over.

Wednesday last week a headache started. Got bad Thursday night/Friday morning into Saturday. Apart from headaches felt ok if not more tired .

I put it all down to side effects.

Sunday started getting an odd nausea moment now and then. Monday comes and I’m literally buzzing and more awake and alert I’ve felt in a long time. On top of that I’ve been peeing like a ridiculous constant and can’t stop drinking.

Then the nausea gets worse and keeps coming. Then the sweating. In the meanwhile I’m starting to test my sugars to make sure I’m ok. They’re reading 23 then 21 and basically been that way a few days.

Today I tried to get a call back from a doctor at the GP surgery and instead I got a call back from a nurse. I describe what I’m feeling and that I’m constantly peeing and can’t satiate my thirst.

So the first thing she says in her why you wasting my time voice was to say in a gruff voice “why are you testing your sugars” errr I’m a diabetic!! Then proceeds to tell me I shouldn’t have to. Well gosh tell the doctor then as it’s the doctor that prescribed me the stuff to record my readings.

Nurse then proceeds to tell me I either have menopause or I may need a check as she thinks I have a prolapse!!! So yes what can I say at this point? What part of diabetic did she not hear.

But let’s make things worse. I said I need to be seen. So an appointment is made for me today at 3pm. Nope not see a doctor but the paramedic!! He who doesn’t know about diabetes at all.

It gets worse. So he takes my blood pressure. It’s high but he says he isn’t worried by it, takes a blood test to read the sugar, it’s high and he says I shouldn’t worry about it as it’s normal. So again my mouth was agape. ( in my masks). Anyone with a brain cell knows a diabetic should go above 12 at the worst but 21 that’s serious.

I hand him a bottle of pee and he asks me what for. Err to check my ketones as I’m a diabetic. so he dips the stick and says yes they’re a bit high but he isn’t worried.

Then he is about to dismiss me and I say ummm I’m feeling sick, I have a constant headache, I’m sweating, peeing and can’t get enough water and my stomach pain.

Apparently I need Gaviscon and to get my eyes tested as its maybe my vision causing me to feel this way.

Glad I was wearing a mask because under it I was looking at him mouthing the C U next Tuesday word.

No I really was.

I’ve got blood test on Thursday but here I am at home in pain, feeling sick and still got high sugars. It’s 10:30 pm and I can’t go sleep like this.

Moral of the story ? Right now the NHS is questionable.

But if you want to see how incompetent today was. Don’t take my word. The phot below the credits is a text message sent to me after my consultation on the phone with the nurse.

Apparently I’m a candidate to consider being checked for diabetes!!!! Oh an apparently referring to blood tests? I don’t need to say more!

Video:-

Credits:-

Susa mint outfit from Una at the EQUAL10 Event

Camera ready pose from Lyrium at the EQUAL10 Event

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Black panther from the Rezz Room at the EQUAL10 Event

Blush hair from Truth

Kinky Eyeshadow from Velour

Monica HD lipstick from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Shot on location at Luanes World

Getting my Cherry to Boom

Getting my Cherry to Boom

As you will be aware Cherry Boom Boom has come into Second Life and are working with Paragon Dance Animations to produce some of their finest moves.

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Dance Credits:

Cherry Boom Boom dance collection from Paragon Dance Animations at the EQUAL10 Event

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Product Description
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The Cherry Boom Boom Dance Choreography Collection is a glimpse of the various dance numbers used in their show. Performance captured by dance team captain Sarah Johnstonn.

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About Cherry Boom Boom
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A Modern-Day Rock-N-Roll Burlesque Show featuring A list dancers in Hollywood + Las Vegas created by Lindsley Allen, founding member/associate choreographer of the Pussycat Dolls.

WEBSITE: https://www.cherryboomboom.com/
FACEBOOK: https://www.facebook.com/cherryboomboomtheshow
INSTAGRAM: https://www.instagram.com/cherryboomboomtheshow/

Clothes Credits:-

Starlight lingerie by MUSE at the EQUAL10 Event

Rocket boots from MIWAS

Kinky makeup from Velour

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Kiara hair from DOUX

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Gloomy Ruins Backdrop from Bearded Guy

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1 solo dance, 1 solo dance (w/ pom poms & HUD), 1 chair dance (w/ 5 poses), 4 barre dances (w/ 5 poses)

Paragon_CherryBoomBoom – Salute Finale Dance

Cherry Boom Boom Pom Pom Dance HUD
PomPom Dancer – (L) – Paragon & [Chris Two Designs]
PomPom Dancer – (R) – Paragon & [Chris Two Designs]

Paragon_Cherry Boom Boom – Chair Dance
Paragon_Cherry Boom Boom – Chair Dance (WEARABLE)
Paragon_Cherry Boom Boom Chair Dance Exclusive
Paragon_Cherry Boom Boom Chair Texture HUD
Paragon_CherryBoomBoom Chair HUD Animations

Paragon_Cherry Boom Boom – Barre Dance
Paragon_Cherry Boom Boom MonkeyBar Texture HUD

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