Sunshine and smiles

Sunshine and smiles

There isn’t any! Sun that is. Well it’s slowly arriving.

Recently I decided to pay for Tinder 1 month access. Just so for once I could see who actually liked me. If anyone at all.

Well there is a huge list I won’t lie. I’m currently drawing crowds to my profile.

Crowds of no matches to be honest. A few have been masterful scammers. They all work on oil rigs offshore or are military and unfortunately their spouses dead and they’re looking for mama. Sugar mama!!! All ask if you have Kik or what’s app straight at the bat.

All want to know what work you do or if you have a son, does he live with you.

Well I’m bantering away and I’m a stock market broker and own my own businesses and retired at 42!

Sugar mama I am not. The most they’ll get from me is a cuppa tea and a sandwich.

At my age the search for love is a rather bumpy road to travel.

But………..

Credits:-

Higher resolution of the photo can be found here

Sunni dress (has hud) from Lemony at the ACCESS Event

Jolly pose car from Amitie

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Claire Necklace from [Kunst]

Mousse hair from eXxEsS

Superna Eyeshadow and Wonyoung Lips from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

FRANCE PITTORESQUE

FRANCE PITTORESQUE

I’ve been to visit this destination and attempted a line in french in the video. Don’t expect anything grand as I’m useless.

I cannot speak french at all but really felt this video warranted me having a go.

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Credits:-

Dennise cotton top from Kaithleens at the ACCESS Event

Marilyn Denim shorts from Kaithleens at the EQUAL10 Event

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Mousse hair from eXxEsS

Superna Eyeshadow and Wonyoung Lips from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

To visit France Pittoresque just click here

Shopping time

Shopping time

In reality I’m doing a SHEIN shop in a few moments. I really am going to treat myself big time.

There’s a link below the credits of this outfit and you can see how cool their clothes are.

My Sunday is just relaxed and chilled. Had hoped to catch up with a friend this weekend but that went to pan. Then hoped to be sitting in the sunshine reading, that too went to pan!! It’s windy and cool and not ideal. So it all went to pan.

Lazy day it is inside. I’ve faffed around the flat with odd bits of housework and just editing something I’m writing. It’s a book in progress yes and may take me a hundred years at the rate I’m going!!!

It’s a bio of my life and will not be for the faint of heart as my life in reality was extremely turbulent in the earlier years of my childhood.

Anyhow todays outfit you can find at the Saturday sale in a few colours. I’m wearing part of the mega pack hud in this photo. Lovely outfit go check it out.

Credits:-

Aniron Dress outfit from Entice at the Saturday Sale

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Meadow hair from Truth

Kinky Eyeshadow from Velour

Kinky lipstick from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Backdrop is the April group gift from Minimal

Barely dressed

Barely dressed

If only in reality I had this look and could run around wearing such an outfit. If only.

Reality can be harsh when we look at ourselves in the mirror and see ourselves. My reality certainly this morning has me looking like the rainbow Good Year blimp. ie I’m wearing this rainbow striped nightie and I’m far from lithe and youthful.

Still, despite that fact I’m ok with my reality. It may cause me angst at times because nothing is perfect, but at least I’m rest assured that I’m the only me.

Now being a me, is certainly unable to be replicated and makes me an individual. I’m good with that.

We should all be good with that. No matter how we look we are all amazing individuals that enrich this planet with our mark of existence.

If I wasn’t here. You wouldn’t be reading this.

And if you are not reading this. Why not!!!?

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Credits:-

Tinderella collection from Spoiled at the EQUAL10 Event

Dani standing pose from SweetArt at the EQUAL10 Event

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Olivia hair from Kuni at the EQUAL10 Event

Superna Eyeshadow from Velour

Lipstick from CATWA HDPRO

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Shot on location at Spirits of Shara at Amara

READY Steady going

READY Steady going

Are you ready? It’s nearly the weekend and another week we can close the door on and get ready to enjoy.

I’m not going anywhere as such but am tempted to make myself over and just see if I remember how to put that makeup on and get sassy.

Now me and sassy have been apart quite a while so I have no major expectations of the level of sassy I can achieve. But may as well give it a go. Failing that pjs and Netflix may be the choice.

I am actually positive I may step outside this weekend and see some life. Maybe walk around lakes and lay in the sun (if there is any) and read a good book. Crowds depending. Always the people. In reflection maybe not. I’ll lay on my balcony instead.

What are your plans? Going out into the world or going out virtually?

Credits:-

All for you dress from Entice at the Cosmopolitan Event

Addie bag from [DDL] at the ACCESS Event

Blaithe earring from POM at the ACCESS Event

Rebecca chains (on legs) from MICHAN at the ACCESS Event

Colourful passway backdrop from Pitaya at the ACCESS Event

Christie Static Pose from Lyrium at the ACCESS Event

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Olivia hair from Kuni at the EQUAL10 Event

Superna Eyeshadow from Velour

Peony lipgloss from IVES at the ACCESS Event

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Floating out there

Floating out there

Where do I begin!!!! I really don’t know. Other than to say 2021 may also personally for me a bit of a bittersweet year. Already it’s kind of been a sarcastic comedy of sorts.

I touched not so long ago in one of my YouTube coffee blogs that there were issues with my hair. Since Covid hit I noticed a patch of my hair thinning and disappearing. Just at the very time I was accepted as a curly girl ambassador for Boucleme hair products. Incredibly bad timing.

All the hair has disappeared from my arms and legs . All this since lockdown.

Yes I considered it may be due to high stress but today I was seen by a consultant who has examined my records and my scalp etc. Verdict is female pattern baldness.

So it could stay as it is now or gradually get worse. Either way it’s a huge knock to my soul as what is most noticed about me has always been my curly hair.

But, I’m not prepared to give into the internal tears inside me. After all it’s not killing me. It just means one day I may be buzz cutting it all off.

Until then I shall crack on with a smile and learn to accept that I’m still fortunate and need to get a grip. There are damn sight worse things in life.

I still have minge hair, albeit it looks like a ninja head now!

Credits:-

Discrecia dress (has hud) from Le La at the Designer Showcase

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Blush hair from Truth

Superna Eyeshadow from Velour

Wonyoung lipstick from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

A little homely moment

A little homely moment

I’m sat here having a homely evening. A little out of sorts today and made myself dinner and feet up.

I’m going to bed early tonight and just close today. Tomorrow is another day and why not.

So I’m having a homely moment if that’s possible. Legs up and watching a rather lame murder mystery film.

I hope you all enjoy your evenings and I’ll see you on the flip side.

Credits:-

Lilou top and skirt from KiB Designs at the Designer Showcase

Tokyo Glasses M/F from Haysuriza at the Designer Showcase

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Kiara Hair from DOUX

Superna Eyeshadow from Velour

Maren lipstick from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Ted Talk

Ted Talk

I rather fondly call this my Ted talk. More so as I was in this video expressing a number of thoughts and so only watch if you have the patience to listen. Otherwise I seriously wouldn’t bother.

It’s cathartic to talk and so I do.

I will however be honest I cut out quite a chunk of what I spoke about as after doing so I thought nahhh it’s stuff I don’t need to share. But then I am quite a sharer as that’s what keeps me sane in life.

There are times we all need to share thoughts or moments with just someone. These days due to everything I just find myself sharing in my blog or in my Coffee talks.

Today’s I call the Ted talk because it felt like I was relaying something and well why not. Ted I’m sure won’t mind me using his name.

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Credits:-

Athena outfit from Saschas Designs

Lookaway pose from Diversion at the ACCESS Event

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Olivia hair from Kuni at the EQUAL10 Event

Superna Eyeshadow from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

I’m just getting my swag on

I’m just getting my swag on

It’s after midnight and I’ve been beavering away for hours today filming things for the upcoming week.

I’m a little in a corner feeling that I want to do something new and different. I just can’t put my finger on it as to what.

Do you ever get those moments? I also am having a lot of self doubt right now and asking myself many questions about the value of the things I do. Are they worth doing? Am I bored? Am I tired?

I can’t quite say. I just know that my light is dimming and I actually feel very much alone. I did a Ted talk today which I was going to upload tonight. But I froze on the upload button. The overwhelming feeling that I’m just simmering away sometimes makes me want to turn up the heat and see what happens.

For now though I’ll just lay my head to sleep and dream of my next adventure.

Credits:-

Paris outfit from [RnR] Swag

Peony lipgloss from IVES at the ACCESS Event

Bright rainy backdrop and from Diversion at the ACCESS Event

Lookaway pose from Diversion at the ACCESS Event

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Olivia hair from Kuni at the EQUAL10 Event

Superna Eyeshadow from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

The end

The end

It finally is the end of the week and I have to say it went too quick for my liking.

I know I always bleat on about looking forward to the end of the week but at the same token I don’t want life to flash by.

It seriously doesn’t feel like I’m living it and that in itself troubles me. In a blink of an eye time disappears. Then we sit and wonder where it went.

I have a weird feeling in the very pit of my stomach. No it’s not diarrhoea!!

I just feel a little happy and sad at the same time which often means something is soon to happen.

I have a 3rd sense like that and in life when anything major is about to happen I get this deep down feeling of laughter and deep sadness. I could cry but also laugh.

It doesn’t mean anything bad. It just means I sense something is coming.

Frankly hopefully it’s my handsome soul mate on his scooter who will whisk me off to a Maccy D’s dinner and a Netflix film. (I’m being realistic here).

Failing that my bills have been paid by a wonderful benefactor and Jason Bateman is really my boyfriend. Oooo that man is so my current interest right now!!!!

Anyhow check out my outfit. It’s very spring like and has a hud!!!! Just saying.

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Credits:-

Nay outfit from Yasum at the EQUAL10 Event

Dani standing pose from SweetArt at the EQUAL10 Event

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Olivia hair from Kuni at the EQUAL10 Event

Superna Eyeshadow from Velour

Lipstick from CATWA HDPRO

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Shot on location at Spirits of Shara at Amara