Don’t wake me

Don’t wake me

I’m so tired that I need a week of sleep. The kind of deep, restorative, luxurious sleep that resets your soul and possibly your entire personality. I don’t want a nap. I want a medically supervised coma with breakfast in bed when I wake up. Somewhere along the line, “rest” became a myth. My brain [...]

Dislocate

Dislocate

 I’m seeing a doctor today about my shoulder issues, which have quietly (and not so quietly) become worse over time. My shoulder has dislocated twice recently during a flare , just for a few seconds each time, but that’s enough to leave a deep ache and a quiet fear in the back of my mind. [...]

Wi Fi looks better on me

Wi Fi looks better on me

My avatar doesn’t just wear a bikini, she inhabits it. She struts down digital beaches like she’s starring in a music video. Her waist is snatched, her hips are perfection, and her thighs curvy but athletic. She’s the version of me that never apologizes for existing in high definition. No tan lines. No belly rolls. [...]

System issues

System issues

This week has been one long waiting game. The systems at work decided to take a little holiday of their own, crashing, glitching, refusing to load, or just staring blankly back at me as live but not live! So instead of working, I’ve been… “working.” You know, sitting there with my screen open, half-pretending to [...]

My avatar left me for a holiday

My avatar left me for a holiday

Everyone I know is sun-kissed and sipping cocktails. I’m celebrating a French stick all to myself and pretending my bank account isn’t empty. Meanwhile, my Second Life avatar’s living it up in the Costa di Lucie, tan, yacht, sequin bikini, zero sweat. She’s flirting with a lifeguard who’s probably Dave from Croydon. She posts filtered [...]

Today is the day

Today is the day

Monday was my last hangout in the summer sun and I’m preparing to have my little surgery today on the offending malignant mole on my shin. Not going to lie, I am with heaving stomach right now and trying decide on what to wear. I know that sounds daft, but I am guessing it has [...]

Pausing to think

Pausing to think

I’ve got my pending Melanoma removal on Thursday and despite my jollity I’ve started to feel intense angst about it all. I am not good with pain. Never had any previous surgery before. The thought of being cut into my shin is filling me with intense dread If they don’t get it all what will [...]

Ice Cream

Ice Cream

I just want ice cream. A nice giant 3 scoop ice cream! That’s it. That is how I am feeling today. I’m a little low, a little not low, a lot of feeling in between. I am just……. CREDITS Pipa Boho outfit from Saschas Designs Reema EVOX head from CATWA Nami hair from Exile Kait skin [...]

The Plants

The Plants

It’s my day off. A rare, beautiful, responsibility free day. I went to the cinema earlier to watch the Smurfs. Don’t judge. It was with my grandson and daughter. My only plan this evening? To give my balcony plants the TLC they deserve. A little pruning, a little chatting and begging of them to sprout [...]