I made this video about a week ago. But some days I get annoyed at myself as I’m ever the grinder and I do need to take a step back. You know, let it out slow and easy etc not spam.
I’m rambling. Anyhow, I’m never ever really bored as there is always something attracting my attentions to do. I live alone with the cat and have no partner in crime.
I’ve actually just realised that even though many a time I feel overlooked in reality and my skills are never utilised or appreciated. There are so many other things I do which frankly I’m proud of .
Let’s list those just for some context.
I blog, create videos on YouTube, write, attempting to be financially better off (failing miserably), work a full time job and very involved in the Union.
Mother, grandmother too.
Tik toker and now Tik Tok creator since I was invited over a week ago by the Tik Tok team. ( honestly that part is making me cackle) I’m new to it so we shall see how it goes. I’ve been sent some really lovely things which I’m repurposing as Xmas gifts as it saves me money right now. I keep quiet about it and frankly only Rosie Helendale and Kris know.
Today the union nominated me into the national committee . Meaning in person meetings around the U.K. starting 2024 in January in london then places such as Belfast, Scotland and who knows. Oh and don’t forget Palestine which currently is on hold till March. I’m still contemplating that one and whether I will go now.
When I think about it I never realised how important my role is. Not until I received a lovely email today from the Director of HR in my workplace who really said some lovely things about the role I do. That made my year.
I often sit here and feel all of this is so late for me., the sudden recognition’s. I should have been doing all this and be beyond by now. Maybe my expectations are too high? I’m feeling that at this stage in my life I should be winding down, but instead it’s ramping up. I’m a little lost.
Oh but this growing up thing is giving me more tongue. I’m no longer afraid to say what I see and no longer timid as I used to be at one stage. I guess part of maturing is that after you learn and grow, you suddenly realise how much you really are worth. Bit late but I guess better late than never.
I’m worth the stars!!! So are you.
Have a good evening and thank you for reading my rambling Ted Talk.
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CREDITS
Amelie dress from Anika
Reema EVOX head from CATWA
Void hair from Truth
Stella skin from the Skinnery in toffee
Luna body skin from the Skinnery
Classic mesh body from Legacy
Image courtesy using Flickr
Thot on location at Natthimel
Isabelle Cheren 