Today this is me? What do I wear.
Do you ever have those days that no matter what you pull out of the wardrobe and put on, you just don’t like what you see in the mirror?
Today I’m having one. Well to be brutally honest, most days I do. Today somewhat more than the rest.
I can critique myself at every angle and every single surface of my being. I’m I guess my own worst enemy at times.
I’m a woman who has a whole lifetime been plagued with trying to look like all the other girls and been judged on appearance. It’s formed quite the basis for a lot of things I’ve done and relationships I’ve had.
As I’ve got older I’ve learnt that it doesn’t matter if others fancy my being, what matters is if I fancy my being. On the whole I do because I like myself. But right now I don’t because I promised myself to get fitter, lose weight and take life by some different horns, and I haven’t.
When I let myself down like that, I tend to have these internal conversations with myself about the reasons why I did or didn’t do something.
I’m having one of those right this minute on this bus ride to work and telling myself off for not being pro active about the things I need and want to change.
Now my gal in the video below, she hasn’t a care in the world. Her only worry is which colour.
Vienna Swimsuit from Bijou
Nao hair from Argrace
Catya bento head from CATWA
Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz
Lara mesh body Maitreya
Christy dark skin Lara Hurley