Challenge accepted

Challenge accepted

I actually haven’t much to say today because I’m right now having what’s left of my day off.

I booked this day weeks ago and for the life of me can’t remember why.

Suffice to say I’m sure someone is ultimately annoyed with me right now as I clearly forgot something.

Did I do anything? Nope. I had a slow morning relaxing. A lovely shower and then spent a gazillions minutes playing with TikTok!!

The addiction is real but I’m sure I’ll be bored soon. It’s not like anyone watches them apart from me. πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

Seriously I spend ages just laughing at myself.

Here have a TikTok while you admire my virtual me.

It’s part of my contribution to the whole #challengeaccepted

Clearly I chose to do it differently.

https://vm.tiktok.com/JYWN8Hf/

Credits:-

Daisies  top and leggings (with hud) from Entice at the Cosmopolitan Event

Carian hair with sunhat from MINA

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

ZafirahLipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Nora BOM skin from  Amara Beauty

Shot on location at Luanes World

My pretty little thing

My pretty little thing

I’ll be honest, brutally honest. I don’t look like this right now. No seriously I don’t.

The reality of today is my hair is wet like this but I’m not wearing a swimsuit or looking as β€œtogether”. I just washed my hair. My cats are either side of me and I’m still not quite awake.

To be honest, if you hadn’t guessed I’m not an avatar, I am real. I have many flaws and don’t ever wake up looking like I’ve had my face frozen into perfection.

Don’t get me wrong Ive wished for it many mornings, but I accept reality as being as it is.

I also embrace how individual we all are in reality and have our own individual looks and blemishes etc. Life would be incredibly lack lustre if it was perfect. Plus it’s fun in life seeking our perceptions of what our perfections would be. Mine are not what people may think.

Racing around in our virtual worlds we can create versions of our perfections. It’s hard to pin point which mine is. Most people presume it’s Isabelle Cheren the avatar.

But it’s not. I am many avatars in Second Life and my favourite person to be is actually VaGina. Because she couldn’t be more real if she tried. She represents non perfection and reality more than any other of my avatars I become. VaGina is coarse, says it how she sees and feels it and loves and embraces her body as it is. That’s my idea of perfection, to be happy in the shell we live in.

Have a good Saturday everyone. It’s my housemates 30th birthday today so I’m making a little fuss for her so she doesn’t feel down in the COVID19 lockdown thing we are in.

Credits:-

Valera Swimsuit from American Bazaar at the Designer Showcase from June 5th

Sandra Hair from Mina

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Gloss Lipstick from A R T E

Tropical eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Nora BOM skin from  Amara Beauty

Shelter pose from Luanes World

Little bird

Little bird

Little bird, let me love and protect you.

Let me nurse you to spread your wings and fly.

So yesterday I had a major meltdown. Major.

It’s to be expected but none the less I scared even myself.

The rollercoaster of emotions that come and go during this time is something I know many of us can’t control and what do we do?

Well my honest answer is, why hide how you are feeling. Yesterday my whole work team got to experience how I was feeling.

Usually I’m chatty and laughing but something snapped and I let them all know that hey guys I’m not ok, I had questions to ask. I was told that the meeting was not the forum to ask those questions.

I felt bad about it, burst out crying and ended my side of a video conference call.

I cried all day and all evening. Cried my heart out. Missing my children and also upset with myself for my human outburst which may have upset my colleagues.

BUT I woke up today and thought, hang on a minute!!! Why ask me if I’m ok but then shut me down when I answer.

Isn’t the point of that question is to get my honest answer? Isn’t it? Aren’t meetings about the well being of staff supposed to also address that there are people not coping ok?

So today I wake up and I feel much better about it because I realise that I allowed them to see I’m not. But when it was seen I’m not ok, it suddenly is not “appropriate” to not be ok as people can’t face the reality of what that question actually means.

I think a lot of you know what I mean. It’s the seen to be doing something but not actually doing it.

I don’t blame my colleagues or my manager at all. They’re human beings too and are also struggling with their own inner conflicts.

But will I participate in these meetings in the future? No. Because, if I am asked am I ok, I don’t feel I should pretend I am, when I am not. That is a waste of time for me and my logical mind says that I’d rather work than do that dance because it ticks a box.

I’d rather get on a telephone and talk to a good friend who understands and isn’t scared to listen or answer.

The worst part of yesterday. It was a video conference. So not only did my colleagues hear my upset, but they got to see it. That isn’t fair to me or them.

One thing I am learning in this whole experience that we deal with things in very different ways.

That we mustn’t keep inside how we are feeling because by doing that we make it worse.

Talking about your feelings is important and even if they’re irrational, airing them helps you to move forward.

I truly advocate open discussions and checking in on people. Letting people know you may need help or that you just need a hug.

As human beings we are quite social beings on the whole. Although some of us like solitude, we also need to express emotion, talk, feel, hug, love and be ultimately human.

It’s totally ok to melt down. It’s totally ok to cry. Shout and be irrational.

Don’t let anyone make you feel guilty for those feelings. COVID19 is affecting everyone in many ways.

Be there to listen. Be there to show you do care.

Be human!

Credits:-

Alyxx utility jumpsuit from Vinyl at the EQUAL10 Event

Halo hair from Knox at the Tres Chic

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Gloss Lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Shot on location at Dya’s scent of carribean

Lost my Shizzle

Lost my Shizzle

I’ve just lost my shizzle on my real person Facebook. Gave my two cents worth about how deep inside I’m truly feeling.

It’s after midnight and I should be asleep, but I can’t. I just want to cry and if I start, I know I won’t stop.

Despite how positive I can be a lot of the time, I’m also pretty human and also feel the same things others do.

I just “manage” my feelings differently.

Today I am raw.

I’m hurting so much in my heart and I don’t know that there is an end to it.

We may be virtual characters but we are also all people.

I’m scared, and my heart is breaking.

I used to pray. I actually do have strong beliefs and have forgotten how to. I’m not sure if anyone listens but it’s worth giving it a go.

I’ll be ok tomorrow. Some days I just need to let it out. Recover and then carry on.

Here is what I wrote.

Very spooky when I watched Contagion earlier. Totally replicates what’s going on now.

Our lives aren’t going back to normal any time soon, we are heading towards a new normal.

So the question is what next?

I’m not planning on accepting being locked away in my four walls without human contact with my children and friends for god knows how long, working! For what? What are we working towards? This isn’t here for a season, this is here for a long haul.

I had better plans for my life before I eventually die.

I never expected to be wishing for the day β€œit’s all over and normal again”.

Life feels completely changing and for all you out there not saving your money but flagrantly spending it.

The new tv, sneakers, state of the art phone etc is pretty wasted when all you currently have are your four walls. Potentially in a year not able to keep a roof over your heads etc.

Start saving and thinking about what happens next. Because it won’t be that dream you had 12 months ago.

Facts are the economy is going to suffer hugely and we are going to head toward the biggest recession globally our lifetimes have seen.

The waste of money you make today is your loss tomorrow.

As I said, I’m not being in these four walls indefinitely. I’m not accepting that as my future.

So bloody stay home and stop spreading this BS !

Credits:-

Kara Skirt and top dress from Furtacor at the Designer Showcase

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Charlotte hair from Analog Dog

Gloss Lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Nora BOM skin from  Amara Beauty

Shot on location at Luanes World

Finding relaxation in Isolation

Finding relaxation in Isolation

Today’s Coffee with Isa I’m talking about our current lifestyles imposed upon us that may be causing some stress and how we can cope with it.

I’m no expert but for me an important part about coping is about managing time for myself. Even more so when I’m at home 24/7 with another person.

For many people their 24/7 is more than one person and we all need to find time to reflect on our own and just let our tensions flow away from our bodies.

Meditation and just general stretching are quite a key element to just easing that tightness we feel in our bodies and just realigning ourselves.

Video:-

Credits:-

Becky Crop top and Lea shorts from Ec cloth at the EQUAL10 Event

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Charlotte hair from Analog Dog

Gloss Lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Nora BOM skin from  Amara Beauty

Shot on location at Luanes World

All dressed up and nowhere to go

All dressed up and nowhere to go

A few weeks ago in my reality there was a clothing sale on in one of the stores I like to shop at. I had an online shop moment and bought myself some new tops.

Last night I sat here wondering why on Earth I needed those new tops and when I’ll get the opportunity to even wear them.The real answer is, no one knows. None the less I still bought them. I don’t even know why.

One part of me sees a sale and thinks yeah go for it. The other part logically says hold back because any spare money right now really needs to be saved.

The world right now is an odd place and we really don’t know what we are going to face economically in the months, maybe years ahead. So I guess the question we need to ask ourselves is really do we need it? What’s the sacrifice we make for that outfit?

I don’t know the answers but what I do understand is that economically we must keep some normal going. But realistically we must also make sure we save what we have in case of any recession coming.

The easiest way we do this, is live our reality in readiness, but in our virtual know we can escape to normality. I never thought I’d ever say this.

Well, that’s how I’m doing it.

How are you living yours?

Credits:-

Never surrender pants from Entice at theDesigner Showcase

New attitude top from Entice at the Cosmopolitan Event

Jandi hair from Limerance at theEQUAL10 Event

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Sweet gloss Lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Shot on location at Backdrop City the Room

level

My stomach hurts

My stomach hurts

Seriously I cannot stop laughing every time I see this gif.

It has absolutely nothing to do with the outfit in the photo but hey if you like it certainly give it the same as old Ronald.

You will know what I mean when you check the gif.

Seriously the little things make me laugh and smile.

Gif:-

https://images.app.goo.gl/KUECHB8GF32GG87p9

Credits:-

Tanaya coat from KiB Designs at the Designer Showcase from the 5th February

Coat has a hud with  10 Solid colours and 5 prints

Got to be a reason pose from Luanes World

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Sweet gloss Lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Vega hair from Stealthic

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Shot on location at Luanes World

Edie  skin in 04 from  Amara Beauty

Play Free

Who am I?

Who am I?

I was talking to a rl friend and was showing him all my characters in Second Life and how each one looks and sounds.

He asked me a very good question

“Who are you?”

Well the answer is actually quite simple really.

I am Liz.

But all these characters are also me.

They are slithers of my personality drawn into the virtual world and let loose.

My main persona is Isabelle Cheren. As we all know. But the essence of each person I am in a video character is me too.

Yes I’m either insane or in touch with myself so much that I’ve split .

Or simply why not laugh, if you can laugh at yourself?

But the main thing is, these characters are very much a creative expression when life in the real world just seems so crazy. They have helped me through difficult times and when I need a friend, I can just call on one of me!

I’m kidding on that bit. But imagine if you could?

So today who is this in my blog?

Credits:-

Day gig outfit from I M Collection (number of colour variations)

Soft touch lipstick from Mila

Verge hair from Stealthic

Erin head from Lelutka

As it seems pose from Luanes World

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Isabella skin in shade 05 from  Amara Beauty

Shot on location at the Four Seasons

Heels of seduction

Heels of seduction

When Jonny said that my fur would go well with his new dance coming out, he wasn’t wrong!!!

I never release before the event but frankly today I am because this just is so sassy I cannot help myself.

You have to be signed into YouTube as I have marked this as over 18.

I call it personally my heels of seduction.

The dance is Ally Heels and details down below. Opens at Uber 25th!!!

Video:-

Dance Credits:-

Heels dance from Paragon Animations  from the 25th January at the Uber

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Heels dance style is a bold new trendy dance that combines the attitude and energy of hip-hop, jazz technique, and the sensuality and glamor of burlesque. Dancers always perform and practice dancing in high heels. Originally danced to “Climax” by Usher. Tempo = 136.0 BPM
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Clothes Credits:-

Robin Bodyfur from Kaithleens at theEQUAL10 Event

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Zafirah Lipstick from A R T E

Blossom eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Edie  skin in 04 from  Amara Beauty

 

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The ride

The ride

I have forgotten how unexciting my bus journey is in to work. Until today.

Today’s ride was no exception as I had the joys of what must be pensioner day.

Now don’t get me wrong nothing wrong with the pensioners, after all I’ll be one some day soon. It’s just the ride in becomes longer and more drawn out as Hilda catches up with Bet and Martin sees Bob and they all chatter.

Well the bus doesn’t move then, because the bus driver has to be thoughtful and H&S minded. The journey nearly twice as long.

Me, slowly giving up on life on the longer journey. Now I’m on the bus ride home, there they are again.

All I want to do is get home to my sofa and a nice cup of tea.

In the mean time I can dream of being a rebel girl and riding a motorbike.

Both the leggings and top I’m wearing by the way have a hud. Little detail there, lots of choices.

Credits:-

Fade to black top and leggings from Entice  at the Hallow Manor until November 1st

Biker girl pose from Luanes World

Gem eyes  from Amara Beauty

Tropical eyeshadow from A R T E

Oline lipstick from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Edie  skin in 04 from  Amara Beauty