Let that sunshine bear down

Let that sunshine bear down

Happy Sunday all you lovely people.

I’m in a rather chipper mood and that’s because yesterday I got to have my grandson a few hours while my daughter went to her work place for a meeting. That’s the great part.

My daughter, her salon was due to open yesterday in the U.K. (like all others) then Boris last minute on Friday changed that.

My daughter and many others who are self employed have been without work since end of March.

The owner of the business has had to still pay ground rent in the building and clearly if there is not income coming in, then it’s looking like more businesses will go bust.

Frankly words cannot express how I think about Boris. Let me see, fickle?

Let’s see it’s ok to go pubs, drink and forget social distancing etc, restaurants. But for businesses who invested ridiculous money into all required PPE, they still cannot earn a living.

Our realities are getting incredibly real.

So, my suggestion, pop into our virtual world and escape a little.

Hence in virtual my nonchalant stance exists.

Have a good Sunday wherever you are.

Remember life is for living and virtual worlds for escaping and being. ❤️❤️❤️

Credits:-

Jaidah dress from Suga Baby at the Designer Showcasestarting 5th August

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Dua hair from DOUX

Zafirah Lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Nora BOM skin from  Amara Beauty

Bella Backdrop From Minimal

Take the day on

Take the day on

I currently have a perpetual headache.

A literal one, not a wider more reflective of life one. Though that exists too.

The past few days suddenly I’m spiking with this unforgivable headache that clearly fancies me rather well and doesn’t want to go anywhere at all.

Bloody cheek! I never invited him to stay. But he has moved into my head and taken up residence because he felt like it.

Yes I’m discussing my headache in the third person.

Covid lockdown has this effect on me. I think I’m starting to talk to myself. It’s hard to know as the back and forth is quite good. It’s almost though someone else is in the room!

Anyhow as previously said before I discovered Tik Tok.

OMG I seriously haven’t laughed so much as I have recently. Why I never discovered its entertainment value ages ago I don’t know. Oh yeah because it had the kids all over it.

Well now it has been hijacked by us boomers!!

I made a mashup video of what I’ve been up to. You will clearly see I’ve had a jolly good time playing with the little app.

Video:-

Credits:-

Carmesi Black jacket and tshirt from  STOP

Kayce track bottoms from Frais

Regan sneakers from EQUAL

Leslie hair from MINA

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Gloss Lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Shot on location at Mad Pea Ghost town

On the bench

On the bench

It’s way too hot to sit inside. I’ve done it all day working at the desk.

So for ease of feeling human, it balcony time and a cooler spot.

I was thinking about what’s going on in the world earlier and considering how many of us have taken the time and care to follow the social distancing rules for COVID19.

Then I think about how it’s slowly unravelling in different hot spots of the world because the infections are slowly starting to appear again.

Whilst, at the same time Knucklehead Boris Johnson is easing off the lockdown in the most frankly imbecilic way.

Not only can we look to step closer than the 2 metres but will be able soon to go hang out in pubs and restaurants get tipsy and well if you are like me when tipsy, you want to hug and kiss the world.

Go figure!

But here’s the dumb bit. Businesses like beauticians, gyms, nail salons etc who have spent money investing in making their premises COVID19 safe. Have now been told they cannot open. How much sense does that make, when bars can open?

None clearly!

So those are the thoughts floating around in my head right now this balmy summer evening.

Credits:-

Jorja top (with hud) from EC.cloth at the EQUAL10 Event

Dynamite pants and Boots from KIWY at the EQUAL10 Event

Llanes_4 backdrop from Ionic at the EQUAL10 Event

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Charlo9tte hair from Analog Dog

Gloss Lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Nora BOM skin from  Amara Beauty

Under the waterfall

Under the waterfall

As I stand here by the falls . My tears fall silently upon my heart but cannot be seen.

I’m going to be brutally honest here.

I cry inside with the pain of a mother’s heart that is separated from her children.

I have not seen my son nearly 3 months now and my daughter fleetingly a few weeks ago with my grandson outside on the pavement.

I was excited in many ways that I’d be able to have either of my children come here and come inside and hug from this weekend. Spend some real time together.

But you see that’s not going to happen.

Because I share my home with someone who hasn’t exactly followed the social distancing rules and in turn that means I can’t take the risk. Actually flouted a few times those rules. Don’t get me started on how. The government in its wisdom didn’t consider people like me. So on it goes.

The risk for my kids who won’t now be able to come here and that makes me sad inside. I’m at risk daily and I can accept that. But I can’t accept that my children are so close but feel so far away.

Technology is ok, it has its uses and ya da ya da ya da. Ultimately I’ve learnt that the most important thing for me is to stand in the same room with my family. Nothing else is important. Everything else feels superfluous and meaningless.

So I’m sad inside but also very angry. Angry that people are so selfish and self important and don’t think of others.

I’m angry that the world is right now behaving like a cesspool of hate and people have lost their minds. I’m angry that while I stand here feeling this, the world is behaving like it always has.

People kid themselves with all their self gratuitous statements and trying to be noticed and relevant.

The protests and the violence at a time we are meant to be united disgusts me. The hatred spread through Facebook and other social media’s like a silent virus, branching out and grabbing people along its way.

People victimising and bullying and accusing.

What has the world become? Unity lasted how long? We united because of a disease and then suddenly one police officer changed the world.

The people who have used that moment to gain social media fame and presence disgust me.

The irrelevant models, actors and businesses who exploit it to become someone in a world in turmoil. To behave like parasites using the time to be on stage and feel relevant.

The criminals who loot and commit violence. The people who choose to protest but social distancing becomes irrelevant. No cause is worth that right now. We are supposed to be overcoming something.

I’m tired and worn.

So, as I stand here under the waterfall and my tears fall inside my heart, I know that no one has learnt anything at all.

Martin Luther King and Nelson Mandela are the true speakers. They both believed in peaceful protest and the power of what that could convey.

Everyone else? Missed the message.

No matter what way you want to mix it up or kid yourself. No one really knows what they are doing.

That beautiful image this weekend of a BLM protestors who go in and help a racist. That’s human!! Here’s the story Here

Credits:-

Juliette dress from Wild (has hud)at the Designer Showcase

Marie hair from Knox

Gem eyes  from Amara Beauty

Tropical eyeshadow from A R T E

Oline lipstick from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Edie  skin in 04 from  Amara beauty

Shot on location at It all starts with a smile

Balmy time’s

Balmy time’s

Should that be Barmy or balmy?

Depends on how you feel right now. I feel both but today I’m going to discuss barmy and the fact that apparently this weekend it’s ok for us to hug a person from another household. Jolly good.

So you can, invite another household into your “bubble“ but only one!

So here lies the dilemma. What if you house share? So then there is a inequality because only one other household can come into the bubble. So which housemate gets to choose?

Because if one housemate chooses (me), that denies the other housemate (her) of having her one other.

But then if we do one each then who is at high risk, me and my grandson because he has heart condition and me diabetes. So that’s what’s barmy. Did Boris and his lions even consider those pictures of home life? So sadly I’m going to likely not partake of this bubble idea for now as it makes no bloody sense to me. Because it’s unfair in house sharing situations.

Then of course next week you can go to the pub. Go figure. Also remembering that protests are now exposing people. Yeah I think I’ll forget it and watch this space a while.

I want to hear like New Zealand that COVID29 has abated.

Barmy!!!

Credits:-

Adalee outfit (dress, jewellery and shoes with hud) from Suga Baby at the Designer Showcase

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Francesca hair from Rama Salon

Gloss Lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Nora BOM skin from  Amara Beauty

I’ll tell you what’s got my goat today

I’ll tell you what’s got my goat today

I’m currently going through one of those iffy phases where the emotional rollercoaster starts to hit and I’m a little bit wobbly.

It’s not surprising really given so much change has been going on recently and it’s change I haven’t really asked for or wanted.

Actually frankly no one has.

But seriously if I hear one more time on BBC One about “flattening the curve” and about how we must do this or must do that, I’m likely to lose my schizzle.

Oh and what the “science says”. I doubt half of those “professionals” even have much of a clue right now. So they refer to the “science”.

In my honest opinion I’m starting to believe that they really are spinning a story in the daily briefing and I’m now tired of hearing a whole lot of nothing really being said. We don’t need to hear this day in and day out. Day after day.

That being said, only those in the U.K. will know what I’m referring to. An endless time moment that happens each day that really tells us nothing.

Seriously why not just say “We have nothing to say”?

So this war paint look from A R T E nicely reflects my disdain at the moment.

On another note I’m rather fine, just annoyed with media and political confusions dampening our lives with no real answers. Don’t get me started on the selfish lot who ignore everything…..

Credits:-

Rose dress be Belle Epoque at the EQUAL10

Native warpaint (various looks) at the eBento from A R T E

Sakura hair from Argrace however its an old one in my inventory and I dont think instore anymore

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Nora BOM skin from  Amara Beauty


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Giveaway update and COVID19

Giveaway update and COVID19

I say it all in the video. But basically in a nutshell I am rambling about the Give-away announcement I’m doing on Friday, hoping to stream live.

We shall see how that works as I’m a nervous Nellie with streaming and getting that right.

Also I’m having a COVID19 update because that’s the topic affecting everyone.

Book read Chapter 3 of the Gypsy and the Virgin will be this week, silence pending.

Oh and a reference to Read Meri

Video:-

Credits:-

Lumi outfit from Lunar now at the EQUAL10 Event

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Gloss Lipstick from A R T E

No Subject hair fromno.match

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Nora BOM skin from  Amara Beauty

Coronavirus Covid-19 Silver Bracelet Fine Jewelry

Smash em in the face

Smash em in the face

Thelma has turned into the new Joe Wicks of virtual exercise.

She has been in isolation 332 days. Been moved for the 3rd time. Got leaner.

Today Thelma is showing you the way she keeps fit during this difficult time.

What’s changed?

Thelma’s attitude for one. She has become a lean fighting machine.

Video:-

Credits:-

Jump top and shorts from IM Collection at the Designer Showcase

Simone head from Lelutka

Halo hair from KNOX

Lara mesh body from Maitreya

Natural lipgloss from A R T E 

Isabella skin in tone 5 from Amara Beauty

Anne my love house  from M Law Designs

Anne shed from M Law Designs

Maycloud Lounger from Raindale at the Liason Collaborative

Stolen moments landscaping from Two Moon Gardens

Pull up bar from ::dev::

Treadmill from Pixelwear

Punching bag from ..: HC premium Creations:..

Little bird

Little bird

Little bird, let me love and protect you.

Let me nurse you to spread your wings and fly.

So yesterday I had a major meltdown. Major.

It’s to be expected but none the less I scared even myself.

The rollercoaster of emotions that come and go during this time is something I know many of us can’t control and what do we do?

Well my honest answer is, why hide how you are feeling. Yesterday my whole work team got to experience how I was feeling.

Usually I’m chatty and laughing but something snapped and I let them all know that hey guys I’m not ok, I had questions to ask. I was told that the meeting was not the forum to ask those questions.

I felt bad about it, burst out crying and ended my side of a video conference call.

I cried all day and all evening. Cried my heart out. Missing my children and also upset with myself for my human outburst which may have upset my colleagues.

BUT I woke up today and thought, hang on a minute!!! Why ask me if I’m ok but then shut me down when I answer.

Isn’t the point of that question is to get my honest answer? Isn’t it? Aren’t meetings about the well being of staff supposed to also address that there are people not coping ok?

So today I wake up and I feel much better about it because I realise that I allowed them to see I’m not. But when it was seen I’m not ok, it suddenly is not “appropriate” to not be ok as people can’t face the reality of what that question actually means.

I think a lot of you know what I mean. It’s the seen to be doing something but not actually doing it.

I don’t blame my colleagues or my manager at all. They’re human beings too and are also struggling with their own inner conflicts.

But will I participate in these meetings in the future? No. Because, if I am asked am I ok, I don’t feel I should pretend I am, when I am not. That is a waste of time for me and my logical mind says that I’d rather work than do that dance because it ticks a box.

I’d rather get on a telephone and talk to a good friend who understands and isn’t scared to listen or answer.

The worst part of yesterday. It was a video conference. So not only did my colleagues hear my upset, but they got to see it. That isn’t fair to me or them.

One thing I am learning in this whole experience that we deal with things in very different ways.

That we mustn’t keep inside how we are feeling because by doing that we make it worse.

Talking about your feelings is important and even if they’re irrational, airing them helps you to move forward.

I truly advocate open discussions and checking in on people. Letting people know you may need help or that you just need a hug.

As human beings we are quite social beings on the whole. Although some of us like solitude, we also need to express emotion, talk, feel, hug, love and be ultimately human.

It’s totally ok to melt down. It’s totally ok to cry. Shout and be irrational.

Don’t let anyone make you feel guilty for those feelings. COVID19 is affecting everyone in many ways.

Be there to listen. Be there to show you do care.

Be human!

Credits:-

Alyxx utility jumpsuit from Vinyl at the EQUAL10 Event

Halo hair from Knox at the Tres Chic

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Gloss Lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Shot on location at Dya’s scent of carribean

Today I plan

Today I plan

It’s Monday and today’s plan is a walk along the promenade followed by a croissant and coffee then all day clothes shopping.

Yes, that’s today’s plans. Dreaming again as usual!

During our quarantine period of life why not dream a little.

I’m actually in reality lazing in bed before I need to get up for my stroll to work in my living room.

If I stroll slowly and take in all the fresh air etc then I should be good to go for the day?

Are you doing crazy to do plans each day to make your day seem normal and structured?

Credits:-

Rotaru outfit (dress, earrings, boots and sunglasses) from [GIULIADESIGN] at the Designer Showcase

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Charlotte hair from Analog Dog

Oline Lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Nora BOM skin from  Amara Beauty

Shot on location at Luanes World