I have those moments where I step away from the virtual and live in the reality. It’s a given.
It’s the early hours of Boxing Day as I write this and I’m contemplating the past 48 hours and how different they have felt.
With the craziness of life at the moment, I’ve had my fair share of low points recently. I’ve struggled with how I was feeling about parts of my life and what we are all going through.
One thing I can tell you is I miss humans a lot. Touching and hugging and just being near them. I believe we take the simplicity of human connection for granted until we suddenly find we are without it.
I miss “normal” life. Being free to walk amongst humans, brushing past them in the street and smelling their fragrances and trying to guess the make.
I miss walking in stores and people watching and seeing eyes meet and smiles. Real smiles unhidden by masks.
I missed my usual Christmas this year. But I made the best of it as best I could. I enjoyed me time and watched lots of films and had phone conversations.
I missed hugging my children and spending hours with them. Instead we socially distanced meet up, no hugging because there’s more to think about. Not just what I miss or feel.
That’s what I take away this Christmas. That there’s more to think of than just what we expect, want and had gotten used to. Doing things differently is just the way it is right now and it’s ok.
Although I feel alone right now, I also feel lucky. Because out there are my family and friends. My real and virtually made friends.
I appreciate all who checked in on me.
It’s just a moment in time, a blip. Life will move forward and we will learn something new. We will adapt and make changes.
Warm wishes and let’s look forward to the new year. There’s so much more to come.
