I’m up real late and am doing some sorting out around the apartment. Dumb day to do it as I’m sweating balls but I can’t just leave it till the weather cools. I mean I can’t really can I?
I am out old clothes into charity bin bags and sorting out the old paperwork you hang onto for the “just in case”. I am literally a paperwork hoarder for the “just in case”. Out it shreds!!
I helped out live streaming the Seraphim Drag Race last night on Facebook. My god, I rather enjoyed it although I had a few lag issues and then of course woke up this morning and Facebook does it’s mute thing of the live music. Copyright! Bleh!
It was fun and I loved the costumes and the sass brought to the virtual catwalk.
Now I’m sat here chilled and relaxing for 5 minutes. The dress I’m wearing is actually the same colour as my avatar outfit in this blog but that’s about where it’s similar. Seriously I’m not a pretty sight today.
I’m on a weeks leave which started yesterday when I logged off from work.
Do you ever get to that moment that you need total time out and a breath? That’s me right now. I want to switch off and spend time on myself and my family.
Only, one teeny obstacle is the housemate works in my team. So when she comes home later I’ll be laying the ground rules that I’m not interested in work and don’t want to hear about it for the next 9 days!!
Today I went on a girls road trip to the seaside with my good friends. We’re like the older Thelma and Louise’s with attitude. Ageing oldsters. Rosie Helendale calls us the WI woman’s group!!!
I’d say she could be right!!!!
Next week I’m off to the zoo with my daughter and grandson and rest of the time, enjoying just relaxing and grabbing sunshine.
For now, I’m at home in both worlds, just enjoying my surroundings and appreciating what I have.
I’m the virtual you are looking at an outfit from ACCESS Event and furniture from EQUAL10. Details below.
Last night in Strawberry’s absence I assisted and streamed the Second Life Book Club with Drax. Let’s just say there were moments my camera had a mind of its own. But don’t let that deter you. The guest was RoseAnne A Brown a best selling author.
It really is a fascinating conversation and I recommend you watch. Just ignore my wonky camera skills.
Yesterday I had a wee reaction to my second Covid jab. Wee as in tiny, not as in wet myself!
Though I’m sure as I age that will be a fun experience.
I had a headache and total body ache. Today it all seems ok but man does my arm hurt. I’m feeling cautious at the moment and fingers crossed this is it this time and I’m not going to be all over the place again.
I won’t lie, the first jab scared the heck out of me due to the reaction I had. It did take a lot of self discussion for me to go and have the second one.
The bit I really don’t understand is that I was told I will in ten days from the day of that jab, be 85% protected. The nurse was pretty honest with me. Ten days then it’s recommended I still steer clear of things as people like me aren’t necessarily safe.
So, why did I have it???? As I start today I’m asking this question. Forgive me if I thought it meant I could be “normal” again. Though to be honest, I no longer know what normal is anymore.
But, I did the right thing I say to myself. My body doesn’t agree right now, but my brain thinks it has to be the right thing.
By the way where this picture is taken, will shortly be subject of a video this weekend. All will be revealed.
This isn’t my house. I just fancied the backdrop for a photo!!! Shhhh don’t tell!!!
Monday today and fresh week, fresh attitude and fresh air. I’m not sure why I’m feeling chipper but I am. Nothing has happened to make me feel that way, I just do.
Though it could be said, I’m just rotating emotion and decided to put the other head forward. Who knows.
That aside, I’m currently really enjoying blogging lately. More so than I previously did. Which has surprised me. Seriously after 5 years I would have thought I was going to give up, but this far I haven’t.
Recently I had contemplated the importance of what I do in life and what matters to me etc. A friend spoke with me about my consistency and my “work ethic” in both lives.
I have a pretty strong work ethic both realistically and also via my virtual exploits. Neither give me great financial outcomes despite the efforts I put into both. That’s a huge fallacy that people assume as a blogger and vlogger it’s a given. It’s not.
It’s often asked of me , Liz why do you bother as very little read my blog or watch my YouTube videos.
The answer is quite simple, because I enjoy it.
The value in my activities are usually about how I feel about the things I do and how they make me feel. Pretty much as simple as that really.
No I don’t make money in my blog and my income from YouTube is negligible. Seriously we are talking literally £70 every 3-4 months. That basically covers a takeaway once a month!! For me though I reinvest into my blog and my video making. The remainder comes from my own monies.
I think people often assume that it’s a money making exercise. Nope. Love of feeling creative and disappearing now and then is the pleasure I get.
There isn’t any! Sun that is. Well it’s slowly arriving.
Recently I decided to pay for Tinder 1 month access. Just so for once I could see who actually liked me. If anyone at all.
Well there is a huge list I won’t lie. I’m currently drawing crowds to my profile.
Crowds of no matches to be honest. A few have been masterful scammers. They all work on oil rigs offshore or are military and unfortunately their spouses dead and they’re looking for mama. Sugar mama!!! All ask if you have Kik or what’s app straight at the bat.
All want to know what work you do or if you have a son, does he live with you.
Well I’m bantering away and I’m a stock market broker and own my own businesses and retired at 42!
Sugar mama I am not. The most they’ll get from me is a cuppa tea and a sandwich.
At my age the search for love is a rather bumpy road to travel.
If only in reality I had this look and could run around wearing such an outfit. If only.
Reality can be harsh when we look at ourselves in the mirror and see ourselves. My reality certainly this morning has me looking like the rainbow Good Year blimp. ie I’m wearing this rainbow striped nightie and I’m far from lithe and youthful.
Still, despite that fact I’m ok with my reality. It may cause me angst at times because nothing is perfect, but at least I’m rest assured that I’m the only me.
Now being a me, is certainly unable to be replicated and makes me an individual. I’m good with that.
We should all be good with that. No matter how we look we are all amazing individuals that enrich this planet with our mark of existence.
It’s 10 pm here U.K. time and unlikely I’ll get much sleep tonight.
I’m exhausted to be honest but I also don’t feel I can go to bed. I’ve had a really rubbish few days. Like really rubbish. I could have said days ago, Sunday, yesterday but I didn’t.
I try and just crack on as nothing worse than a whiner.
So I had the vaccine on the 12 March and ached a few days like an old woman. Job done all over.
Wednesday last week a headache started. Got bad Thursday night/Friday morning into Saturday. Apart from headaches felt ok if not more tired .
I put it all down to side effects.
Sunday started getting an odd nausea moment now and then. Monday comes and I’m literally buzzing and more awake and alert I’ve felt in a long time. On top of that I’ve been peeing like a ridiculous constant and can’t stop drinking.
Then the nausea gets worse and keeps coming. Then the sweating. In the meanwhile I’m starting to test my sugars to make sure I’m ok. They’re reading 23 then 21 and basically been that way a few days.
Today I tried to get a call back from a doctor at the GP surgery and instead I got a call back from a nurse. I describe what I’m feeling and that I’m constantly peeing and can’t satiate my thirst.
So the first thing she says in her why you wasting my time voice was to say in a gruff voice “why are you testing your sugars” errr I’m a diabetic!! Then proceeds to tell me I shouldn’t have to. Well gosh tell the doctor then as it’s the doctor that prescribed me the stuff to record my readings.
Nurse then proceeds to tell me I either have menopause or I may need a check as she thinks I have a prolapse!!! So yes what can I say at this point? What part of diabetic did she not hear.
But let’s make things worse. I said I need to be seen. So an appointment is made for me today at 3pm. Nope not see a doctor but the paramedic!! He who doesn’t know about diabetes at all.
It gets worse. So he takes my blood pressure. It’s high but he says he isn’t worried by it, takes a blood test to read the sugar, it’s high and he says I shouldn’t worry about it as it’s normal. So again my mouth was agape. ( in my masks). Anyone with a brain cell knows a diabetic should go above 12 at the worst but 21 that’s serious.
I hand him a bottle of pee and he asks me what for. Err to check my ketones as I’m a diabetic. so he dips the stick and says yes they’re a bit high but he isn’t worried.
Then he is about to dismiss me and I say ummm I’m feeling sick, I have a constant headache, I’m sweating, peeing and can’t get enough water and my stomach pain.
Apparently I need Gaviscon and to get my eyes tested as its maybe my vision causing me to feel this way.
Glad I was wearing a mask because under it I was looking at him mouthing the C U next Tuesday word.
No I really was.
I’ve got blood test on Thursday but here I am at home in pain, feeling sick and still got high sugars. It’s 10:30 pm and I can’t go sleep like this.
Moral of the story ? Right now the NHS is questionable.
But if you want to see how incompetent today was. Don’t take my word. The phot below the credits is a text message sent to me after my consultation on the phone with the nurse.
Apparently I’m a candidate to consider being checked for diabetes!!!! Oh an apparently referring to blood tests? I don’t need to say more!