Well Christmas is over and frankly I’m glad.
One of my good friends has Covid I found out last night and she sounds really bad. She has constant headache, huge fatigue, coughing up large amounts of I don’t know what and a pain in her chest.
It came on a few days before Christmas and on Christmas morning she was told the results.
Currently she is at home all on her own with her 13 year old son. No one is allowed to visit and I just want to hug her. I’m hoping she doesn’t get worse and starts to feel better soon.
Two of my daughters friends are now ill as well and what felt like far away is starting to hit people around me.
So I’m glad Christmas is over. Next there is New Years and all the idiots will be back out and about.
Aside from that I’m wondering how others spent their time. I know how lonely I felt inside, but I managed it. I made the best of my alone time to enjoy it.
Others are not like me and struggle more. It saddens me that anyone should have to be left alone at all. These are facts of life, not just Covid life. Covid just makes it all the more apparent.
Right now the best gift anyone can give, is time. Time never stands still and it passes so fast. So where you can, give it freely. It’s worth far more than any material thing you own.
Cable knit sweater from Tres Blah
Crunched sweats from Tees Blah
HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA
ZoeHair from DOUX
Eline skin from AMARA
Reflectice eyes from Amara
Suzy Lipstick (for Catwa HDPRO) from A R T E at the eBento
Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E
Lara mesh body Maitreya
I have those moments where I step away from the virtual and live in the reality. It’s a given.
It’s the early hours of Boxing Day as I write this and I’m contemplating the past 48 hours and how different they have felt.
With the craziness of life at the moment, I’ve had my fair share of low points recently. I’ve struggled with how I was feeling about parts of my life and what we are all going through.
One thing I can tell you is I miss humans a lot. Touching and hugging and just being near them. I believe we take the simplicity of human connection for granted until we suddenly find we are without it.
I miss “normal” life. Being free to walk amongst humans, brushing past them in the street and smelling their fragrances and trying to guess the make.
I miss walking in stores and people watching and seeing eyes meet and smiles. Real smiles unhidden by masks.
I missed my usual Christmas this year. But I made the best of it as best I could. I enjoyed me time and watched lots of films and had phone conversations.
I missed hugging my children and spending hours with them. Instead we socially distanced meet up, no hugging because there’s more to think about. Not just what I miss or feel.
That’s what I take away this Christmas. That there’s more to think of than just what we expect, want and had gotten used to. Doing things differently is just the way it is right now and it’s ok.
Although I feel alone right now, I also feel lucky. Because out there are my family and friends. My real and virtually made friends.
I appreciate all who checked in on me.
It’s just a moment in time, a blip. Life will move forward and we will learn something new. We will adapt and make changes.
Warm wishes and let’s look forward to the new year. There’s so much more to come.