Time to relax

Time to relax

Nearly midnight and I’m going to crash to sleep.

I’m on leave all this week from work and yet what did I do last night? I logged in on the quiet to do some work.

Is it because I miss it or am I admitting I hate finding things sitting in my inbox when I log in after a holiday period?

It’s the latter. Hence I never truly take a break because let’s face the facts, no one does my work if I’m not there. It just sits and piles up instead.

Long gone are the days when you closed the door to work and would return from a break refreshed and feel ready to start again.

These days you have an overwhelming load, take leave then when you return the overwhelming load has doubled. Those are the facts.

I don’t feel very rested anyhow. I’m still under the feeling of being rough and not myself and struggling to get my sugar levels down.

On top of that the medication doubling is really not agreeing with me either. All in all, 2 steps forward and 3 feel to go back.

So let’s live vicariously through this picture instead. An Italian Holiday and I’m just about to head for dinner on the pier. I look rather tested and the sun is just starting to colour my skin.

Video:-

Credits:-

under Pressure outfit from Entice at the Cosmopolitan Event

Esme the warmth of Benevolence necklace from Moondance Boutique at the Designer Showcase

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Unravel hair from Magika

Superna Eyeshadow from Velour

Maren lipstick from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Shot on location at La Perla Old Italy

I give myself…

I give myself…

I decided to give myself time from Second life a few days and from filming etc.

I actually realised that all the time I’ve been blogging and filming I never take time off from it.

The only times are my trips away and even then, I have a habit of pre preparing my blogs etc in advance.

This Easter weekend I actually have officially given myself 3 days off and there won’t be any videos appearing on YouTube or any blogs that haven’t already been prepared.

I just simply deserve to find other time.

So you may wonder what has she been doing do different?

Well very basic simple things. Spring cleaning. Those jobs you want to do but never get around to doing. Cleaning out cupboards etc.

The best bit however has been manicures, pedicures, face masks, films, and just really relaxing. Oh and tapping the odd blog on my phone.

Tomorrow’s plans are sorting my bedroom and moving the living room around and washing windows. Not necessarily in that order.

For now, it’s just after 6pm and I’m finally sat back down after my mad kitchen cleanse and I’m contemplating salad for dinner and a cool drink.

Sadly no alcohol as I’m still it seems reading night on my blood tests. It’s troubling me because I don’t now understand it. It came out of nowhere the spike and it’s not going down despite changes I’m making and the extra drugs. I have a feeling this year is going to really be testing in that area.

Still there’s worse in life and we just go with the glow and do what we can.

Have a lovely Sunday and enjoy the time.

Get off the machines and talk to your family and friends.

Credits:-

lolana dress from Sascha’s Designs

Iris Poses from Lyrium

Claire necklace from [ kunst ]

Adore bag from [DDL]

The Penthouse makeup from Cosmetize

Backdrop from Bearded guy as part of the Dakiti Nights

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Martina hair from DOUX

Kinky Eyeshadow from Velour

Monica HD lipstick from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

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In the moment

In the moment

Sometimes it’s good to sit alone and just absorb your moment.

Now you are no doubt thinking what is she rambling on about again!!!

There is no hidden meaning. I just love to sit alone in the moment on my own. That, is what I’m doing right now in this picture and in reality. Sitting and enjoying the moment.

Happy Saturday!!!

Credits:-

Long dress from zOOm at the Designer Showcase for April

The Springhall set promo from Raindale

Special edition for Seasons change event by LTD! (@Raindale mainstore, promo price during event only, April,3-10

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Alias Hair from Truth

Superna Eyeshadow from Velour

Wonyoung lipstick from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Hail to here

Hail to here

It’s Good Friday and today is my pure lazy day. I’m indulging in a home manicure, pedicure and hair treatment. Clearly all self done.

I just want to spend some time on me and feeling more human. Sadly headaches have emerged again and I’m feeling a little meh about that right now. But you know what???

Buggar it!!!! Take a tablet and crack on!

I took this photo at Motörheadz Cafe. One of my most favourite places I have always visited to drive around like a lunatic.

I felt sad to discover it was all gone and what remains is seemingly the desert. I’m hoping this is just a redoing of this place as I’ve always loved it. Route 66 eat your heart out.

So I placed the Mad Pea photo booth here and made my own iconic shot.

Hail to the Motorheadz Cafe!!!

Credits:-

Featuring the Interactive Phone Booth from MadPea

Isabel Romper from Belle Epoque

Summer mesh hair from Wasabi

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Superna HD Eyeshadow from Velour

Ingrid lipstick from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

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I thought the sun was going to stay

I thought the sun was going to stay

I’m just going to state the obvious here in the U.K. Just as we are ready for spring and summer. Just as those bikinis start resurfacing, winter is on its way back!

Suddenly the temperatures are going back down for Easter and apparently we could get snow? Seriously!!!

Yesterday was a lovely warm day and today it’s a 10 degree drop. Getting cooler.

I’ve decided that no matter what reality holds at least virtually we can live vicariously how we choose. Later I’m going skiing in a bikini!

Credits:-

Surf city bikini from Entice

Summer mesh hair from Wasabi

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Superna HD Eyeshadow from Velour

Ingrid lipstick from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Chat time

Chat time

I do love a good chat. Today despite feeling pretty drained all day. After a half hour catnap after work I felt a little more alive.

So spoke my vlog. To be fair it took me a couple of goes as the first one I prattled on far too long. I made an executive decision to bin that one as frankly it was maybe just a little too real for anyone.

I often try and free mind myself that my channel is a virtual related one. However it’s difficult for me as I’m always being me.

Anyhow if you do choose to listen, I’d suggest a good cuppa as well.

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Credits:-

Nia top and shorts from 28LA at the Access Event until the 8th April

Way up hair from Vanity

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Kinky Eyeshadow from Velour

Monica HD lipstick from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Human for a while

Human for a while

I made this video public before the blog. Sometimes I figure I’ll just test out my finger press and go with it.

I made this video as a source of expression as to how I’m currently feeling. Very caged and angst and having to remind myself that it’s ok. I’m not alone, even if at times it feels it.

The beauty of being virtually creative is that we see our own images and express them in our own ways. Our choice of dress, emotive, dance and music.

I’ve always been lucky to come across some good talent within Epidemic Sound and the lady who sings in this video Gloria Tells is one I love listening to.

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Dance Credits:-

Madison Jazz Funk and Madison Contemporary from Paragon Dance Animations

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Clothes credits:-

Liza Suit from Yasum at the EQUAL10 March round

Posh punk choker from Tapi

Hawaii Cian Backdrop from Bearded guy

Baller hair from Vanity

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Geisha Arm tattoo from KooLit

Kinky Eyeshadow from Velour

Monica HD lipstick from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

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By The pool

By The pool

The photo has nothing to do with my blog.

I mean I’m not right now standing outside wearing panties and pasties. Heaven forbid. It’s rather cold!!!

It’s my lunch break and I’m actually sitting on my sofa drinking tea and eating lunch.

The sight is track pants, sweater and looking like I’ve not really slept in a long while.

It’s Friday and away goes another week of life that I frantically would like to get back and change. As you know I’ve been experiencing a hyperglycaemic period which is something very new to me.

It was very upsetting as well as surreal as no one was listening until I spoke to the 111 service. Yesterday I had blood tests I was told to expect back next week.

They were it appears returned late to the surgery yesterday and a GP had to ring me which he did early this morning.

As a result it confirmed that I was not ok and they’re sending me extra medication. I have to double the lot I take now by slowly introducing in the next week and I’ll be retested in 3 months. If it doesn’t work then it’s injections. Something I really wasn’t expecting.

I don’t want that in my life. I struggle just to do my prick tests so that thought bothers me huge time. So fingers crossed I don’t end up there.

Apparently my reads are worse than when I was initially diagnosed so I have to make huge lifestyle changes.

Covid impact? Yes . Life has been harder during this year and I guess lack of my lifestyle activities has had a huge impact. On top of that the depression I feel about lack of people contact.

I’m not alone I know. So maybe we should set up a friends group for people who struggle?

Anyhow think on that. Back to work I go. Saturday sale!!! Don’t forget.,

Credits:-

Satin Doll ruffle panties and panties from Entice for the Saturday Sale

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Martina hair from DOUX

Kinky Eyeshadow from Velour

Monica HD lipstick from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

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Picture this if you will

Picture this if you will

It’s 10 pm here U.K. time and unlikely I’ll get much sleep tonight.

I’m exhausted to be honest but I also don’t feel I can go to bed. I’ve had a really rubbish few days. Like really rubbish. I could have said days ago, Sunday, yesterday but I didn’t.

I try and just crack on as nothing worse than a whiner.

So I had the vaccine on the 12 March and ached a few days like an old woman. Job done all over.

Wednesday last week a headache started. Got bad Thursday night/Friday morning into Saturday. Apart from headaches felt ok if not more tired .

I put it all down to side effects.

Sunday started getting an odd nausea moment now and then. Monday comes and I’m literally buzzing and more awake and alert I’ve felt in a long time. On top of that I’ve been peeing like a ridiculous constant and can’t stop drinking.

Then the nausea gets worse and keeps coming. Then the sweating. In the meanwhile I’m starting to test my sugars to make sure I’m ok. They’re reading 23 then 21 and basically been that way a few days.

Today I tried to get a call back from a doctor at the GP surgery and instead I got a call back from a nurse. I describe what I’m feeling and that I’m constantly peeing and can’t satiate my thirst.

So the first thing she says in her why you wasting my time voice was to say in a gruff voice “why are you testing your sugars” errr I’m a diabetic!! Then proceeds to tell me I shouldn’t have to. Well gosh tell the doctor then as it’s the doctor that prescribed me the stuff to record my readings.

Nurse then proceeds to tell me I either have menopause or I may need a check as she thinks I have a prolapse!!! So yes what can I say at this point? What part of diabetic did she not hear.

But let’s make things worse. I said I need to be seen. So an appointment is made for me today at 3pm. Nope not see a doctor but the paramedic!! He who doesn’t know about diabetes at all.

It gets worse. So he takes my blood pressure. It’s high but he says he isn’t worried by it, takes a blood test to read the sugar, it’s high and he says I shouldn’t worry about it as it’s normal. So again my mouth was agape. ( in my masks). Anyone with a brain cell knows a diabetic should go above 12 at the worst but 21 that’s serious.

I hand him a bottle of pee and he asks me what for. Err to check my ketones as I’m a diabetic. so he dips the stick and says yes they’re a bit high but he isn’t worried.

Then he is about to dismiss me and I say ummm I’m feeling sick, I have a constant headache, I’m sweating, peeing and can’t get enough water and my stomach pain.

Apparently I need Gaviscon and to get my eyes tested as its maybe my vision causing me to feel this way.

Glad I was wearing a mask because under it I was looking at him mouthing the C U next Tuesday word.

No I really was.

I’ve got blood test on Thursday but here I am at home in pain, feeling sick and still got high sugars. It’s 10:30 pm and I can’t go sleep like this.

Moral of the story ? Right now the NHS is questionable.

But if you want to see how incompetent today was. Don’t take my word. The phot below the credits is a text message sent to me after my consultation on the phone with the nurse.

Apparently I’m a candidate to consider being checked for diabetes!!!! Oh an apparently referring to blood tests? I don’t need to say more!

Video:-

Credits:-

Susa mint outfit from Una at the EQUAL10 Event

Camera ready pose from Lyrium at the EQUAL10 Event

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Black panther from the Rezz Room at the EQUAL10 Event

Blush hair from Truth

Kinky Eyeshadow from Velour

Monica HD lipstick from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Shot on location at Luanes World

Meet Earl

Meet Earl

Earl is the new man on the block. His one great skill is not taking much seriously and being pretty laid back about life.

Earl wants to be a model and tv presenter, those dreams elude him.

Today Earl has been given the job of demonstrating Mad Pea’s new gacha at the Man Cave Event called the Rage Room.

Credits:-

Featuring the Rage Room gacha set from Mad Pea at the Man Cave Event

This is an exclusive gacha

There are 20 Common and 3 Rare items in this set

Max Joggers from Etham at the ACCESS Event

Erik t-shirt by Chucks at the EQUAL10 Event

Alain head from Lelutka (was the free one)

Jake skin from Stray Dog

Jake Body from Belleza

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