It’s 10 pm here U.K. time and unlikely I’ll get much sleep tonight.
I’m exhausted to be honest but I also don’t feel I can go to bed. I’ve had a really rubbish few days. Like really rubbish. I could have said days ago, Sunday, yesterday but I didn’t.
I try and just crack on as nothing worse than a whiner.
So I had the vaccine on the 12 March and ached a few days like an old woman. Job done all over.
Wednesday last week a headache started. Got bad Thursday night/Friday morning into Saturday. Apart from headaches felt ok if not more tired .
I put it all down to side effects.
Sunday started getting an odd nausea moment now and then. Monday comes and I’m literally buzzing and more awake and alert I’ve felt in a long time. On top of that I’ve been peeing like a ridiculous constant and can’t stop drinking.
Then the nausea gets worse and keeps coming. Then the sweating. In the meanwhile I’m starting to test my sugars to make sure I’m ok. They’re reading 23 then 21 and basically been that way a few days.
Today I tried to get a call back from a doctor at the GP surgery and instead I got a call back from a nurse. I describe what I’m feeling and that I’m constantly peeing and can’t satiate my thirst.
So the first thing she says in her why you wasting my time voice was to say in a gruff voice “why are you testing your sugars” errr I’m a diabetic!! Then proceeds to tell me I shouldn’t have to. Well gosh tell the doctor then as it’s the doctor that prescribed me the stuff to record my readings.
Nurse then proceeds to tell me I either have menopause or I may need a check as she thinks I have a prolapse!!! So yes what can I say at this point? What part of diabetic did she not hear.
But let’s make things worse. I said I need to be seen. So an appointment is made for me today at 3pm. Nope not see a doctor but the paramedic!! He who doesn’t know about diabetes at all.
It gets worse. So he takes my blood pressure. It’s high but he says he isn’t worried by it, takes a blood test to read the sugar, it’s high and he says I shouldn’t worry about it as it’s normal. So again my mouth was agape. ( in my masks). Anyone with a brain cell knows a diabetic should go above 12 at the worst but 21 that’s serious.
I hand him a bottle of pee and he asks me what for. Err to check my ketones as I’m a diabetic. so he dips the stick and says yes they’re a bit high but he isn’t worried.
Then he is about to dismiss me and I say ummm I’m feeling sick, I have a constant headache, I’m sweating, peeing and can’t get enough water and my stomach pain.
Apparently I need Gaviscon and to get my eyes tested as its maybe my vision causing me to feel this way.
Glad I was wearing a mask because under it I was looking at him mouthing the C U next Tuesday word.
No I really was.
I’ve got blood test on Thursday but here I am at home in pain, feeling sick and still got high sugars. It’s 10:30 pm and I can’t go sleep like this.
Moral of the story ? Right now the NHS is questionable.
But if you want to see how incompetent today was. Don’t take my word. The phot below the credits is a text message sent to me after my consultation on the phone with the nurse.
Apparently I’m a candidate to consider being checked for diabetes!!!! Oh an apparently referring to blood tests? I don’t need to say more!
I am just giving you a calendar update because im quite helpful like that. Also to let you know that this is todays advent calendar goodie from Entice. So pop on over as freebies are a dream arent they.
I do love a freebie and Christmas goodies are the best. Sadly the only place we get them is in our virtual lives because reality is not so kind.
If we are honest, reality puts the prices up then lowers them back down again and we are deluded into the false premise we nabbed ourselves a bargain.
Enjoy the virtual free gifts and make sure in reality you check their “discounts”.
Outfit from Entice and jewellery Designer Showcase. Details below.
Just a girl shirt and panties from Entice free for group members and for non group members here for $25L
You can obtain the items for $50L after the calendar day y here
The sun is shining and life is good. The birds are singing and I’m alone just thinking about my day and what is new to do.
I was tagged in a post on Facebook today about a little house with a fence around it.
Fenced off from the world. Yes that’s me.
In reality enforced and in SL by choice.
It is no secret that I don’t tend to hangout with many people as often I’m just plainly busy. Lack of time is pretty much a huge decision maker as I work full time in reality and of course have to factor in relaxation away from a screen, life and sleep.
Not enough hours in the day you could say. BUT I’m also known as an island.
I tend to sit myself out to sea far away from crowds and love the time I get to just be alone and feel creative in world. I call it my wind down time and god me a very necessary time as often in reality I can become quite pressured.
My perfect SL time is actually either spent alone just dreaming or with a close friend chatting. Now and then I brace the social side but on the whole I’m an “island in the vast sea”.
Today I’m just a girl in a boat dreaming.
Fancy Pants outfit from Entice There is a huge Black Friday sale so make the most of it!
As I flick through my magazine I ponder today. Today is Monday and it’s not a great day. The week has started so bad and to be honest I really want to curl up in a corner and just pretend it hasn’t happened yet. Maybe rock back and forth and howl a bit too.
I made a mistake at work today which I could kick myself hard for. It was a simple mistake that any human under stress could make.
Then of course there was the message I sent to a colleague which was fun and tongue in cheek asking why she wasn’t at work and joking she was having a jolly good time. Turns out her dad died last week. Something a few people knew but wasn’t shared and so I stuck my size 6’s in and made things just that much more worse. Do I feel bad right now? Yes very much so.
Then it was the flu jab. I’m sure that will hurt tomorrow.
Then I learnt tonight an old work colleague took his life around 2 weeks ago. Far too young and a whole life laid ahead he should have lived still.
This is life. It’s not a fantasy. So let me find a nice tree to lay under while I contemplate tomorrow being any better.
I actually kinda feel these dances and I’d say because they’re so positively cute and fun.
Right now I really embrace the distraction of fun and I’m not averse to featuring dances over and over again when I feel them.
Today the world feels a little different with the last 24 hours and either way whatever you believe or wanted it’s really dumb to trash others views. ie the truly toxic insults I’ve been seeing hurled around Facebook in both my rl and my virtual realms.
Let’s face it that dude is a meme that keeps on giving but that’s him. He has always been that meme.
Hating on each other is pretty toxic and petty and really aren’t we all allowed in our democratic world to have freedom of thought and expression? That doesn’t mean to freely bestow hatred because of peoples choices or political leanings. Smile then move on.
Winners or losers. It’s about being good humans and accepting we don’t all agree in this world.
Wouldn’t it be a really dull place if we did? Enjoy the memes but forgive the rights to have choice.
Win or lose well and carry on. Our virtual worlds are a place to drop this and forgive and just crack on with friendship.
5 funky unisex friendly K-Pop dances performance captured by K-Pop dance cover artist Annie Joo based on her social media K-Pop cover of BTS’s “Dynamite” Original choreography by Son Sungdeuk Originally danced to “Dynamite” by BTS. Tempo = 114.0 BPM
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Annie is the dance director for Koreos, a UCLA K-Pop dance cover crew that has 692k subscribers on YouTube. Although Annie has extensive foundation in dance through ballet, she made the crossover into K-pop dances and manage to stand out among her peers. She is an aspiring social media influencer.
I do love it when I get the chance to hang out with people that I don’t often get the chance to. Time differences and also the real fact that my SL time is spent very busy doing things for blogs or videos for myself or others.
To be honest that is how I like it. My virtual time is a great release to me of reality and it’s negatives and keeping mentally busy suits me well.
So today’s photo is courtesy of Khalhene and her amazing avatars. With my mate Maddie Wyatt
Are you into Halloween? I’m not really at all as I’ve said previously. Only virtually as that’s enough for me.
So many of the films associated with Halloween are basically slasher films which bear far too much resemblance to reality because let’s face it those Nut job weirdos exist out there!
So celebrating it in reality fills me with a sense of underlying fear. Mostly fear that one of the said Nut jobs out there gets a kick out of those films and builds ideas for their own repertoire of criminal insanity.
Having said that I often have to question the authors of these books and screen plays as to where their mind goes when they write this stuff? Like please explain what part of their mind closet they dig into to come up with the gory imagery we get left with? Are these their own secret dark fantasies? Seriously do you ever ask yourself this stuff?
Then pray tell why do we humans get a kick out of watching and participating in the whole storyline? What part of our closet minds rises up to find enjoyment in this?
I’ve had people in life say to me I’m a kill joy when it comes to Halloween. I always say though I need to understand it’s value and why as humans we can detest the acts of murder and abuse publicly but then off we go to celebrate this odd event and embrace all this like it’s ok?
Because it’s not real? Maybe in virtuality. Which is the only place I can find any “fun” from it.
So I enjoy the whole dressing up and looks in Second life, but I choose to not in reality.