And Other Days I Can’t Imagine Leaving
There are days I open up Second Life, stare at my avatar, and just feel… tired. Not physically, but mentally.
Tired of the scene. Tired of the pressure. Tired of trying to keep up.
There’s this weird guilt that comes with feeling “off” in SL, like you’re supposed to always love it or leave it. The truth is more complicated. I don’t always love it. And I definitely haven’t left. Yet.
When It Feels Like Too Much
Sometimes, Second Life feels like a machine that never stops. Events, sales, group chats, friend drama, platform updates, new bodies, new heads, new trends , frankly it can all be so much.
The scroll never ends. The comparisons creep in. The feeling that you have to “do more” to stay visible, relevant, creative and it’s exhausting.
And then there’s the personal stuff.
Real life doesn’t pause just because your avatar looks perfect.
Sometimes I log in and feel completely disconnected like I’m floating through pixels that used to feel like home.
But Then Something Pulls Me Back
And yet… every time I think I’m done, Second Life throws me a reason to stay.
Maybe it’s a quiet evening decorating my space with no expectations.
Or a look, a vibe, a photo that sparks that little creative fire again.
There’s a magic to SL you can’t explain to people who don’t use it. I get tired of it, tell myself I’m leaving, but don’t.
It’s not a game it’s a comfort zone, a creative outlet, a weird, wild, beautiful mirror of who we are and who we want to be.
I Don’t Know If I’ll Ever Really Quit
Maybe I’ll take breaks.
Maybe I’ll continue to log in less, stay quiet more, and only do what feels good.
Or maybe I’ll wake up next week with a whole new idea for a project that pulls me right back in.
That’s the dance. That’s the cycle. And maybe it’s okay not to have a final decision.
Maybe “sometimes I want to quit and sometimes I don’t” is the most honest relationship I can have with this place.
If you’ve ever felt that push and pull, you’re not alone.
Second Life is a lot of things , but it’s never just “nothing.”
Even when it frustrates me, I still care. And maybe that’s why I’m still here.
CREDITS
Jolande outfit from {Le’La} at the Designer Showcase
Reema EVOX head from CATWA
Jett hair from Exile
Kait skin from the Skinnery in Sorbet
Luna body skin from the Skinnery
Classic mesh body from Legacy
Coral Diamond Backdrop from Bearded Guy
Isabelle Cheren 