We can’t predict

We can’t predict

I’m feeling a little sad today and not sure how long this feeling is going to be for.

A lot of things lately are very unpredicted and we take each day as it comes. Today in south east U.K. we started day 1 of a Tier 4 lockdown.

If you want to know what this means, feel free to go read Here

There will be no Christmas in each other’s homes and for me this hurts incredibly.

I’ve spent the past nearly 9 months following the guidelines and to the point I denied myself a lot even when the rules were somewhat lifted. Believing if we all did our bit then life can slowly return to near normal. The belief that Christmas Day I had so much to look forward to. Seeing my children and my grandson.

This is not going to happen. We cannot mix for the foreseeable next few weeks and I’m terribly sad inside about it.

Some have “support bubbles”. I do not.

Because I live in a house share situation. If one person is mixing outside the other cannot create their own support bubble.

I never had a choice in this because the person who rents the spare room met a boyfriend, does physical activities which include mixing and apparently their “mental health” needs to do this.

Well today my sympathies are completely gone. They’re gone for every single person who chose to ignore guidelines and live their best lives during a pandemic. They’re gone because of the selfish actions of others. Including my housemate.

My decision is postpone “Christmas” for when we can. We can still have it another time.

I’ll make the best of a few days break over the holidays and catch up with sleep, films and maybe spending time on myself a bit.

I’m inside the saddest I have ever felt. Doing the right thing didn’t work because if others don’t, then your actions are wasted.

Christmas is important to many people. Not for the religious observance etc.

It’s important as it’s a time families get to come together and just spend time when for many months they cannot. This year seems more so important.

Anyhow it is what is is, the best we can do is find a way to make the best of what we have at our fingertips.

My story in Second Life will be even more so poignant this year. I plan on the Christmas get together in 22nd December. But it may be this year I’ll be with others in our virtual world, spending time on Christmas Day.



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