A real time moment

A real time moment

I have those moments where I step away from the virtual and live in the reality. It’s a given.

It’s the early hours of Boxing Day as I write this and I’m contemplating the past 48 hours and how different they have felt.

With the craziness of life at the moment, I’ve had my fair share of low points recently. I’ve struggled with how I was feeling about parts of my life and what we are all going through.

One thing I can tell you is I miss humans a lot. Touching and hugging and just being near them. I believe we take the simplicity of human connection for granted until we suddenly find we are without it.

I miss “normal” life. Being free to walk amongst humans, brushing past them in the street and smelling their fragrances and trying to guess the make.

I miss walking in stores and people watching and seeing eyes meet and smiles. Real smiles unhidden by masks.

I missed my usual Christmas this year. But I made the best of it as best I could. I enjoyed me time and watched lots of films and had phone conversations.

I missed hugging my children and spending hours with them. Instead we socially distanced meet up, no hugging because there’s more to think about. Not just what I miss or feel.

That’s what I take away this Christmas. That there’s more to think of than just what we expect, want and had gotten used to. Doing things differently is just the way it is right now and it’s ok.

Although I feel alone right now, I also feel lucky. Because out there are my family and friends. My real and virtually made friends.

I appreciate all who checked in on me.

It’s just a moment in time, a blip. Life will move forward and we will learn something new. We will adapt and make changes.

Warm wishes and let’s look forward to the new year. There’s so much more to come.

Second Life Halloween ride

Second Life Halloween ride

In reality I seriously don’t like Halloween. Hard to imagine given in the virtual I just love to make said videos.

The reason you ask? Because it scares me and I’m a bit of a wimp when it comes to all things scary.

I’m that woman who won’t open her door in case the masked person is real. Seriously.

I usually open the door to children only and ignore the rest. This year? I don’t think many sane parents will be letting their little ones accept anything from strangers. Even then it will be anti bac spray and wipe moments.

The most favourite thing I look forward to each year is The Haunted House ride by Linden Lab in Second life and visiting Arranmore.

I never tire of these places and the ghoulish nature of it. Scares me every single time!! This is the first time I have captured in one take the Linden ride.. I’ve not been a character or even myself narrating for a change.

I did add one or two extra sounds just to scare you even more. Headphones on, lights off and watch.

Happy Halloween 🎃

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Credits:-

Bloody Mary dress from S&P at the Halloween Shop & Hop

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Eline skin from AMARA

Kuchisake Onna Layer (gift) from GHOUL at the Halloween Shop & Hop

Eye makeup (gift) from Zibska at the Halloween Shop & Hop

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Catya bento head from CATWA

My Shape

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Happy new year Everyone

Happy new year Everyone

So another year ends and we say goodbye to all the old and go into welcoming the new.

Or rather an anticipation for something new and a list of resolutions we set ourselves and by month 3 already fail in.

Why do we do this?

Save it all up for one night and promise ourselves changes we know deep down that if we truly meant them, we would be already on our way to achieving them?

This year I have zero intention of resolution making. I still have the past 25 years of those I’m still yet to achieve. So I may as well reverse and start from that point.

Or I just accept what is and rather than set myself these targets, just walk into the new year and grab it by the balls.

I can say I have a few projects coming up in 2020 which I’m excited about and that is something I look forward to sharing as the year evolves. But not just yet.

I prefer to share after the fact. Not before.

One reflection I have as I sit here tapping on my phone is that I do want to move towards live-streaming . But I’m not sure I want to do virtual live streaming.

There’s other projects in my head that I want to try out separate to virtual and I may yet.

I’m also still seeking advice on supporting people struggling with social media trolling.

That is a topic I spoke about and I’m very passionate about. But it needs to be done properly with all the safety mechanisms in place for confidentiality as well as bringing people on board who are trained.

This project may be wider than SL so hence I’m being very careful about how it’s done. But watch this space!

One major plan I do have in 2020 is that I have decided after nearly 11 years of caring and supporting people in the work place. It’s time for me to step back and allow myself to experience life with a little less pressure in it.

Apart from a huge court case coming up in July which is the culmination of the last 5 years of a case which had huge impact on me and affected me mentally, the time is nigh that I cut myself the slack. I shall be stepping down from the union and letting someone else take those reigns up. The court case will also give me closure to what hurt my soul.

I wish you all a very Happy New Year and a wish that 2020 is a lot more balanced than 2019.

Sadly deep down I don’t believe that will happen. We just need to make the best of what we can and certainly be a lot nicer and kinder to each other. 🥳🥳

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Credits:-

New years party dress from Legendaire

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Oline Lipstick from A R T E

Blossom eyeshadow from A R T E

Charlotte hair from Analog Dog

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Edie  skin in 04 from  Amara Beauty

Lets celebrate outdoor seating from Chez Moi

Happy New year champagne cart from Chez Moi

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A new day

A new day

For some The festivities are over and for others it’s still going on.

Either way it doesn’t matter as long as you wake up and feel good about the time you have spent.

Be it with many or just yourself.

Personally despite being meh with flu like symptoms, I still feel it was a lovely few days.

Christmas Day was spent with family, yesterday known as Boxing Day was alone with my own company falling in and out of states of sleep and watching rubbish films on tv.

By rubbish, I seriously mean rubbish!

But hey even so rubbish will do when I get the opportunity to just be ultimately lazy and give in to how I was feeling.

Today I have my pending for 2020 new flat mate coming to stay overnight. Dinner and gin.

No particular order. I’m coughing like a bad smoker, but I think I’m pretty germ free now. I hope.

Next week it will suddenly be 2020. Not sure about that number.

If you have ever read Nostradamus predictions, it’s not entirely positive stuff.

One thing positive though, the world doesn’t end till 3037.

So seize the day I say and make your dreams come true.

Credits:-

So Cozy Corset cardigan from Blueberry

So Cozy boots from Blueberry

Calendar pose from Amitie (May) at the EQUAL10 Event

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Zafirah lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Charlotte hair from Analog Dog

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Shot on location at Mother Road

Edie  skin in 05 from  Amara Beauty