Emotional support swing

Emotional support swing

I sat on a virtual swing last night. Just me, the sunset, and a mild sense of “what the actual hell is going on with life.” It was quiet. Too quiet, actually. I half expected my cat to start judging me for sitting there like a moody poet. The swing creaked with every push, probably [...]

Dislocate

Dislocate

 I’m seeing a doctor today about my shoulder issues, which have quietly (and not so quietly) become worse over time. My shoulder has dislocated twice recently during a flare , just for a few seconds each time, but that’s enough to leave a deep ache and a quiet fear in the back of my mind. [...]

No night out

No night out

It was meant to be one of those calm, ordinary Saturdays. The kind where you potter about the house, do a bit of cleaning, and feel vaguely accomplished for it. I decided to tidy the living room and give the TV stand a proper clean. Nothing major, just one of those satisfying little jobs that [...]

The wall unit

The wall unit

Home is where the heart rests, not where the charger hides. Not where blue lights flicker or endless scroll collides. A wall unit waits instead solid, steady, kind. It holds the books, the frames, the little treasures you find. No pings, no beeps, no endless chase, just shelves with room for time and grace. More [...]

OnlyFans: The Gym Membership for Your Right Hand

OnlyFans: The Gym Membership for Your Right Hand

Subscribing to OnlyFans doesn’t make you a bad person. It just makes you a very specific kind of person. A financial wanker. A romantic wanker. A digital-age, algorithmically ignored wanker. But hey someone’s making money. And it’s not you. It’s Becky. In a Pikachu onesie. Eating a banana. For £9.99. Happiness one hand at a [...]

Standing thinking

Standing thinking

I’m just standing. That is all I want to do right now. I’ve lost interest/excitement for so many things lately that I need to just stand still, ponder, consider and reevaluate what I want and don’t want. It’s a very mixed message blog post I know. But then my blog posts often are mixed messages [...]

Boss fantasies

Boss fantasies

Here I am in reality chained to my desk like a hunched over goblin, working all day while secretly dreaming of being that boss. I too want to make dramatic entrances, with overpriced lattes in hand, sunglasses indoors just because I can. Long lunches and work “catch ups”. Meanwhile, I’m over here headset stuck to [...]

Can’t Hoover

Can’t Hoover

I can’t Hoover. But, I can move my arm to around waist level now. My shoulder did its thing again last week for the millionth time. However hoping to see the doctor because after 11 years of shoulder issues on and off this was the worst. Why? Because twice when I attempted to do something. [...]