Dislocate

Dislocate

 I’m seeing a doctor today about my shoulder issues, which have quietly (and not so quietly) become worse over time. My shoulder has dislocated twice recently during a flare , just for a few seconds each time, but that’s enough to leave a deep ache and a quiet fear in the back of my mind. [...]

No night out

No night out

It was meant to be one of those calm, ordinary Saturdays. The kind where you potter about the house, do a bit of cleaning, and feel vaguely accomplished for it. I decided to tidy the living room and give the TV stand a proper clean. Nothing major, just one of those satisfying little jobs that [...]

OnlyFans: The Gym Membership for Your Right Hand

OnlyFans: The Gym Membership for Your Right Hand

Subscribing to OnlyFans doesn’t make you a bad person. It just makes you a very specific kind of person. A financial wanker. A romantic wanker. A digital-age, algorithmically ignored wanker. But hey someone’s making money. And it’s not you. It’s Becky. In a Pikachu onesie. Eating a banana. For £9.99. Happiness one hand at a [...]

Standing thinking

Standing thinking

I’m just standing. That is all I want to do right now. I’ve lost interest/excitement for so many things lately that I need to just stand still, ponder, consider and reevaluate what I want and don’t want. It’s a very mixed message blog post I know. But then my blog posts often are mixed messages [...]

Can’t Hoover

Can’t Hoover

I can’t Hoover. But, I can move my arm to around waist level now. My shoulder did its thing again last week for the millionth time. However hoping to see the doctor because after 11 years of shoulder issues on and off this was the worst. Why? Because twice when I attempted to do something. [...]

Braless

Braless

Today I sat here in pain, my shoulder pulling like it’s mocking me. All I could manage was slipping into loose track pants and, with more effort than it should take, miserably plaiting my hair as I can’t tie it up any other way. Messy Heidi look. The rest of me? Braless and very hanging [...]

Results

Results

I need some help right now. I feel pretty alone as I live alone and simple things such as a basket of fruit n veg I can’t pop out and get. I need my rubbish emptied and taken out and frankly I need someone to unscrew my bottle of water! Yesterday two things happened. I [...]

Dear Tuesday

Dear Tuesday

Dear Tuesday, we need to talk. You’re awkward, unhelpful, and borderline cruel. But that’s fine, because I have my Cazimi eyeshadow shimmering like a tiny rebellion on my lids, and Le Mew nails that say “I’ve got this”, even if I don’t. Fabulousness: achieved CREDITS Fae eyeshadow from Cazimi at the Designer Showcase Lemon Drop [...]

Picture Perfect

Picture Perfect

I had one of those moments where my avatar just stopped me in my tracks. There she was standing against a backdrop. Head high, posture perfect, not a single pixel out of place. Honestly? Fetching doesn’t even cover it. It’s funny how an avatar can carry a kind of confidence I don’t always channel myself. [...]