Emotional support swing

Emotional support swing

I sat on a virtual swing last night. Just me, the sunset, and a mild sense of “what the actual hell is going on with life.” It was quiet. Too quiet, actually. I half expected my cat to start judging me for sitting there like a moody poet. The swing creaked with every push, probably [...]

Dislocate

Dislocate

 I’m seeing a doctor today about my shoulder issues, which have quietly (and not so quietly) become worse over time. My shoulder has dislocated twice recently during a flare , just for a few seconds each time, but that’s enough to leave a deep ache and a quiet fear in the back of my mind. [...]

No night out

No night out

It was meant to be one of those calm, ordinary Saturdays. The kind where you potter about the house, do a bit of cleaning, and feel vaguely accomplished for it. I decided to tidy the living room and give the TV stand a proper clean. Nothing major, just one of those satisfying little jobs that [...]

Tired?

Tired?

Have you ever just felt tired? Not the tired that sleep fixes. Not the kind a long weekend can cure. But that deep, heavy tiredness the one that sits in your chest and follows you through the day. It’s the tiredness of life. The endless cycles of responsibility. The constant background noise of worry, money, [...]

System issues

System issues

This week has been one long waiting game. The systems at work decided to take a little holiday of their own, crashing, glitching, refusing to load, or just staring blankly back at me as live but not live! So instead of working, I’ve been… “working.” You know, sitting there with my screen open, half-pretending to [...]

Today is the day

Today is the day

Monday was my last hangout in the summer sun and I’m preparing to have my little surgery today on the offending malignant mole on my shin. Not going to lie, I am with heaving stomach right now and trying decide on what to wear. I know that sounds daft, but I am guessing it has [...]

Pausing to think

Pausing to think

I’ve got my pending Melanoma removal on Thursday and despite my jollity I’ve started to feel intense angst about it all. I am not good with pain. Never had any previous surgery before. The thought of being cut into my shin is filling me with intense dread If they don’t get it all what will [...]

The Suns coming back out

The Suns coming back out

The sun has got his hat on, hip hip hip hooray. Unfortunately, I’ll be observing from under a parasol, wrapped in SPF and simmering gently in the shade like a forgotten casserole. Why? Because on the 14th, I’m booked in for a lesion excision. Yes. While the rest of the world is out absorbing Vitamin [...]

Pose fail

Pose fail

There I was at Luanes World looking like a model, the sun blazing just right, and me (well, my avatar) styled to perfection and perched effortlessly on top of a car stacked with surfboards. Or so I thought. This was meant to be the shot. I had the whole setup the golden backdrop, the windlight [...]