Thinking

Thinking

It’s strange how easily a virtual world can pull someone in. What starts as something small, a few messages, a bit of chatting online, a connection that feels light and fun, can slowly become something much bigger than it was ever meant to be. I’ve been thinking about this a lot recently because I see [...]

Serenity or Reality

Serenity or Reality

I’m currently lying on the sofa in a very specific position that is for my comfort. One side is fine. The other side is a bit sore today. The shingles blisters are bloody awful. C B D patch on and antivirals. So now I’m watching a film on Prime. One of those heavy ones about [...]

LETS DINE under the “Shingles”

LETS DINE under the “Shingles”

If I could sit down comfortably right now at a dining table, I’d probably be writing this with a cup of tea and a biscuit I don’t need. Instead, I’m uncomfortable in pain and itching and driving myself nuts with trying to get comfortable. Why? Because I have shingles. Found out yesterday. After a long [...]

Bad Saturday

Bad Saturday

I had big plans for Saturday. Nothing wild. Just peace. Maybe a tidy up. A cup of tea that stayed warm. Paint my nails. Make a few TikTok’s. Instead, I woke up with more back ache. The kind where you stand up slowly and know it’s staying. Tried to ignore it. Had a stretch. Made [...]

Relax

Relax

I swear this weekend cannot come quick enough. The past few weeks felt like wading through treacle… uphill… carrying everyone else’s nonsense in a Tesco bag for life. My body is aching, and every joint has decided to sync itself into a concertina effect. There’s just so much on my plate right now responsibilities, overthinking, [...]

The balance is not balancing

The balance is not balancing

I ended work feeling oddly mature today, like a person who might own matching undies. I don’t. I actually don’t. So I checked my bank account, because it’s payday this week. A bold and foolish act upon my part. I don’t know what fantasy I was living in, why did I bother? Deluding myself to [...]

Time jump

Time jump

Some days I don’t want a fresh start. I just want to skip ahead a few chapters in life. Not forever. Just forward. To the bit where things feel lighter. Where I’ve figured a few things out. Where Im all adult and got my ducks in a row. Where my body behaves, my bank account [...]

Nobody’s Child

Nobody’s Child

This weekend I read Nobodys Child by Virginia Giuffre and I wasn’t prepared for how much it would stay with me. I picked it up thinking I’d read a few pages before bed. Except it wasn’t a few pages. It was fifty. Then another fifty. And before I knew it, I’d finished it. I couldn’t [...]

Valentines

Valentines

Happy Valentine’s Day to you all. Being alone is perfectly fine. You don’t need to spend ridiculous amount of money on any gifts and you get to eat ALL the chocolate! CREDITS Nove outfit from Saschas Designs at the Designer Showcase Reema EVOX head from CATWA Zoe hair from DOUX Kait skin from the Skinnery in [...]

I’d rather eat Donuts

I’d rather eat Donuts

When you are working, you don’t want applause. You don’t want a medal. You just want people to pull their weight. Because teamwork only works when it’s actually a team. When it’s a few pushing the cart it gets heavy fast. It wears you down in small ways. It eats at your enthusiasm and affects [...]