That bottle

That bottle

I’ve sat here the past half hour staring at a bottle of water on my coffee table. There’s nothing about that bottle of water that’s really captivating or different from any of the other bottles of water out there.

Strangely, I just registered how amazing that bottle of water is. Looking around my apartment I’m staring at different things and realising how magical it is that we have them. Back to the bottle of water.

Have you ever stopped to think that the bottle of water is available to us because someone created plastic/glass bottles? Then the whole process of whatever they do to the water and putting it then into the bottles? I just did.

We take so much for granted around us.

Next time consider that bottle of water and remember how awesome it really is!

Now the fashion credits….

Credits:-

Sophie outfit from Le La at the Designer Showcase from May 5th

Amaia hair from eXxEsS

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Superna Eyeshadow and Wonyoung Lips from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Chauen Scene Backdrop and pose from Amitie

Shop shein.co.uk!

Floating out there

Floating out there

Where do I begin!!!! I really don’t know. Other than to say 2021 may also personally for me a bit of a bittersweet year. Already it’s kind of been a sarcastic comedy of sorts.

I touched not so long ago in one of my YouTube coffee blogs that there were issues with my hair. Since Covid hit I noticed a patch of my hair thinning and disappearing. Just at the very time I was accepted as a curly girl ambassador for Boucleme hair products. Incredibly bad timing.

All the hair has disappeared from my arms and legs . All this since lockdown.

Yes I considered it may be due to high stress but today I was seen by a consultant who has examined my records and my scalp etc. Verdict is female pattern baldness.

So it could stay as it is now or gradually get worse. Either way it’s a huge knock to my soul as what is most noticed about me has always been my curly hair.

But, I’m not prepared to give into the internal tears inside me. After all it’s not killing me. It just means one day I may be buzz cutting it all off.

Until then I shall crack on with a smile and learn to accept that I’m still fortunate and need to get a grip. There are damn sight worse things in life.

I still have minge hair, albeit it looks like a ninja head now!

Credits:-

Discrecia dress (has hud) from Le La at the Designer Showcase

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Blush hair from Truth

Superna Eyeshadow from Velour

Wonyoung lipstick from Velour

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

What can I say

What can I say

I’ve not been feeling the greatest this past week. I’ve slept on and off the past few days. Hence no blogs or videos. Apologies.

I’m feeling disturbed to the point that I have to lay here in bed writing this. It’s so late but I slept so much today I’m now wide awake.

Remember the Mandela Effect?

It feels like currently right now the world is experiencing this.

People are genuinely believing this pandemic doesn’t exist and it’s a form of control by governments! The other side (people like me) thinking vastly differently and that we need to eradicate this.

No this doesn’t refer to two sides of my mind. This is about two individuals living the same time but walking a different but same path. Seeing the same things but the perceptive belief is vastly different.

It is quite scary how there are the people like me who are understanding what is going on and what we need to do. It’s the others that scare me. They’re so caught up in their theories and truly believe them.

It’s a form of insanity to me to hear how people believe, truly believe that governments are doing this to control them. What on earth are these people listening to?

There’s no logic in their defence and not for one second do they notice the glaringly obvious . What government chooses to lose its economy willingly? Why?

I’m not keen on politicians at the best of times. They’re all flawed with one or other things. However I’m not daft enough to believe governments around the world are deliberately sabotaging their people and economies to gain some kind of mind control over their populations.

That sounds a little bit like cray crazy to me. Ok. A lot!!! So explain to me this vastly different set of views? How did it happen? Where did it start?

I have a theory. The Mandela Effect. It’s out of control. It’s slowly seeping and spreading and dividing people.

You can see it in not only the Pandemic but also the very divided cultural and social beliefs.

It’s the year 2021 and we have just stepped 5 feet back against the direction we were meant to be heading

Does that surprise me at all? Not really. Humanity hasn’t learnt its lessons yet and has somewhat of a long journey to go.

Humans are their own worst enemy at times and led by the snout usually. Humans have a tendency to gather and pack into groups, often without any real tangible reason than the sense of belonging.

Mix that with a tablespoon of social media, a drop or two of suggestive subliminal media and what to do you get? A pack. Blindly following.

I’m going to call it the Two Step Effect.

It’s almost like a dance whereby the two packs run to a drum beat alongside each other. Yet they dance different beats to the same drum.

Whose drum is right and whose is wrong?

Credits:-

Zulayda dress from Le La at the Designer Showcase

Forged Nails from Cazimi at the Designer Showcase

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Soiree hair from the TRUTH VIP group

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Suzy Lipstick (for Catwa HDPRO) from A R T E at the eBento

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Lara mesh body Maitreya

I know what you did last night

I know what you did last night

Last night I had a truly lovely night with friends. My bottle of gin and laughter and just doing something I haven’t done in ages.

This year has been such a challenge and I’ve missed human contact and touch incredibly. Just laughing and enjoying time.

Of course it was very socially distanced before you ask as we sat in a hot tub with our drinks to hand.

Because it was in a virtual world we could do this.

Today I wake up late with a sleepy smile on my face.

Never underestimate the power of friends and making things happen in a virtual world.

Next the Christmas meal plan for all my friends before Christmas. I best start baking!!!

Then this dress!!!

Credits:-

Mione Gown from {Le’La} at the Designer Showcase from 5th December

Fiona earrings and choker from Livia at the Designer Showcase

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Kitten Hair from Truth

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Suzy Lipstick (for Catwa HDPRO) from A R T E at the eBento

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Shot on location at Backdrop City

Be a better you

Be a better you

Have you ever looked in the mirror and analysed yourself and wondered what you would be like if you were not born into the body you currently reside in or were born into a different time/circumstance?

I have, many a time. In fact I often do, consider if I was in another form, would I be any different as a person than I am now?

I believe that our core person is who we are, our goodness and sense of humanity. But our circumstances shape our outlook and influence our view for whatever reasons. But none the less, our core is who we are and should be.

Do I believe I have a right to blame circumstance upon my actions? No.

I grew up with violence, rape, racism and feeling like an island in the sea. I’m still that island in the sea, because that is who I am. Responsible for myself. I learn to enclose and remember who I am. I disassociate from blame and look to find truth instead.

Do I use those experiences to define the person I could have been, blame all the bad things in life on, excuse myself for being a responsible decent person?

NO!!!!!!!

It’s never ok to blame when in essence you are as you grow able to take charge of your person and shape your person to be better than your circumstance.

Those that don’t, allow their paths to narrow and lose their way.

All decisions in life are a choice. Only you can make them, you have to make them, against the tide.

That is how I view life. That is how I am a responsible human.

What do you think?

Credits:-

Brielle Outfit (with hud) from {Le’La} at the Designer Showcase

Chiffon hair from Stealthic

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Gloss Lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Nora BOM skin from  Amara Beauty