I need a good day out in the Tropics somewhere on this planet. Well to be honest a day wouldn’t quite cut it, but maybe 6 months?
Weirdly I would find nothing more wonderful that just a handful of people on a tropical island, just swimming and playing in the sand all day. Barbecues by sunset and long walks within the trees that stretch across the land. Talking, laughing and just being happy with each other. Both family and close friends.
Is it odd I think that I don’t want a good night out with a bunch of people or some concert etc that people are currently looking forward to ? In the last year I have realised that to me its simple things in life are the ones that matter most.
My friend rang me today and asked if I wanted to go out shopping . I declined. To be honest what did I need to shop for? In all seriousness I have learnt that I don’t need a lot of the things I used to buy and I purchased then just out of habit.
Maybe my sense of money is that it can be here today and gone tomorrow, so why am I buying “things” I don’t need or actually really even want.
Im happy with the odd online clothes purchase as I then leave it in a basket, think about it long and hard before I even press the buy button. It allows me to reconsider do I really need that or want it. Usually 8 times out of 10 I remove items from the shopping cart because I realise that I didn’t really want them. I think we are all guilty of shopping without any rationale and just buying things for the heck of it at times.
Today I purchased something I actually did think about and to me is worth it. A book. No not a kindle one, but an actual hard copy real paper one. Old fashioned I know. But I do love a good flip of a page and bending pages down when I come across sections I love.
Funnily it was via a conversation with Drax that I purchased it after he started telling me some of the aspects of the book. Seriously you will have to watch Second Life book club this week as this author is going to be interesting.
I doubt I will have read the entire book by then, but I will be making a good start later today when I relax on my sofa.
In reality I’m doing a SHEIN shop in a few moments. I really am going to treat myself big time.
There’s a link below the credits of this outfit and you can see how cool their clothes are.
My Sunday is just relaxed and chilled. Had hoped to catch up with a friend this weekend but that went to pan. Then hoped to be sitting in the sunshine reading, that too went to pan!! It’s windy and cool and not ideal. So it all went to pan.
Lazy day it is inside. I’ve faffed around the flat with odd bits of housework and just editing something I’m writing. It’s a book in progress yes and may take me a hundred years at the rate I’m going!!!
It’s a bio of my life and will not be for the faint of heart as my life in reality was extremely turbulent in the earlier years of my childhood.
Anyhow todays outfit you can find at the Saturday sale in a few colours. I’m wearing part of the mega pack hud in this photo. Lovely outfit go check it out.
Where do I begin!!!! I really don’t know. Other than to say 2021 may also personally for me a bit of a bittersweet year. Already it’s kind of been a sarcastic comedy of sorts.
I touched not so long ago in one of my YouTube coffee blogs that there were issues with my hair. Since Covid hit I noticed a patch of my hair thinning and disappearing. Just at the very time I was accepted as a curly girl ambassador for Boucleme hair products. Incredibly bad timing.
All the hair has disappeared from my arms and legs . All this since lockdown.
Yes I considered it may be due to high stress but today I was seen by a consultant who has examined my records and my scalp etc. Verdict is female pattern baldness.
So it could stay as it is now or gradually get worse. Either way it’s a huge knock to my soul as what is most noticed about me has always been my curly hair.
But, I’m not prepared to give into the internal tears inside me. After all it’s not killing me. It just means one day I may be buzz cutting it all off.
Until then I shall crack on with a smile and learn to accept that I’m still fortunate and need to get a grip. There are damn sight worse things in life.
I still have minge hair, albeit it looks like a ninja head now!
It’s after midnight and I’ve been beavering away for hours today filming things for the upcoming week.
I’m a little in a corner feeling that I want to do something new and different. I just can’t put my finger on it as to what.
Do you ever get those moments? I also am having a lot of self doubt right now and asking myself many questions about the value of the things I do. Are they worth doing? Am I bored? Am I tired?
I can’t quite say. I just know that my light is dimming and I actually feel very much alone. I did a Ted talk today which I was going to upload tonight. But I froze on the upload button. The overwhelming feeling that I’m just simmering away sometimes makes me want to turn up the heat and see what happens.
For now though I’ll just lay my head to sleep and dream of my next adventure.