Are you present?

Are you present?

I can’t remember. Is it Wednesday or Thursday?

Seriously unless I look at the calendar on my phone. I’m struggling to accept we are near the end of Thursday.

I’m finding time is feeling like it’s disappearing before our eyes. I blink and it’s already another day. I wish it would just slow down a little.

Let me catch up.

This week I have really done little work as I’ve suddenly had an influx of union meetings and tasks to do. Those tasks relate to writing reports and doing checks . Which I love doing. It’s my investigative personality that gets to be used.

Yesterday I was back to back in meetings for 4 hours without any break at all. Have you ever tried not going to pee in that length of time when you were kinda needing to go at the start?

Let me tell you the pain was real. Don’t forget I’m also diabetic. The need to pee is even more prevalent.

Unfortunately there is an attitude to presenteesm that I think has evolved due to video meetings. People now forget that where you were sat in a room together you would just excuse yourself and pop to the loo. Now?? Now people expect your presence without break. There is no longer a consideration that you could leave the room anymore.

I believe this will be my next project to undertake. Remove presenteesm from the work place.

It’s a bad habit to get into so let’s just stop that now. If your guilty of that mindset. Change it!!

Now below is a video for the current ACCESS Event.

Video:-

Credits:-

Bolero and Bodysuit from Elegance Boutique at the ACCESS Event

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Secret garden backdrop from K&S at the ACCESS Event

Suzy lipstick from ARTE

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Catching a train

Catching a train

I’m not really catching a train but I do wonder what that feels like now. Not having caught one for over a year!

Honestly what a different experience that would be right now.

I’m having an odd day here in reality. I applied for a job. In my own work team I will add. I answered the one question on the application and was told yesterday I wasn’t shortlisted because I didn’t answer the question!

The question simply was a question the reason for applying. But I’m told that I should have been referring to the job description answering that question. But it didn’t say that. Question was simply reason for applying. I knew something was wrong because I had great difficulties in the application with freezing connections and in the end had to log into it via chrome.

Fact is when I applied there did not appear this box that tells you what you should also include. In fact I even said to a colleague on the day I would have expected it to be there, so uploaded my CV too just in case.

Anyhow it turned out all a mess and it is as it is.

What I take away from moments like this, is my strong sense that things always happen for a reason.

I’m more than able to do the job I know and I don’t have any self doubt about that BUT maybe I’m to do something else!!

So for the first time in 16 years of doing a job I love, I have made the decision to start looking at other things rather than hope my moment will happen because if I’m honest with myself it won’t.

Credits:-

Louis Black dress outfit from Sacha’s Designs at the Designer Showcase

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Haruka hair from Argrace

Suzy lipstick from ARTE

Ronda_5 backdrop from Ionic

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

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Digital Art

Digital Art

I think we can often overlook how beautiful art can be. It’s easy to do so because there is so much that surrounds us.

I often stop and look and just appreciate what I see and just think wow! Digital Art in Second Life is one such part of creation that I look at and each time think wow.

I appreciate the time and creative thought that the person behind these works must take to bring these ideas into our virtual world.

Any form of artistic creation makes our world a vibrant backdrop. Enjoy…..

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Credits:-

Silky Minie dress from 1 Hundred at the Designer Showcase

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Solstice hair from TRUTH

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Suzy Lipstick (for Catwa HDPRO) from A R T E at the eBento

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Shot at Digital Art

Pick up a phone

Pick up a phone

Another weekend escapes me and tomorrow it’s back to the same old routine. Roll out of bed, breakfast and work. On and on and on.

No seeing anyone apart from the housemate and wondering when my life can pick up again.

I had a lovely video call with my grandson Mason today and it made my day. The sad thing about the call after I said how much I missed him he said “Grandma you’re not in our social bubble so I can’t hug you”.

It cut me inside because no child should grow up seeing life in this way.

It’s January 2021 and it’s been nearly 11 months that we have been living this surreal life.

One thing during this period is I have learnt about friendships and who is really there when we need them. You know, people who you can count on to listen to you and just talk.

I’ve learnt who are not genuine and the selfishness of some I had never noticed before. Ive never been more alone than I am right now and yet at the end of a phone, there’s the path to feeling not alone.

Tangible but not within reach. But still there.

Pick up a phone and ring someone. You just may make them feel less alone.

Credits:-

Bad liar dress from Entice

My Cute phone animation pose from Sweet Art at the EQUAL10 Event

Baddie lipstick from Bellucci at the EQUAL10 Event

Box French Bulldog from Rezz Room at the EQUAL10 Event

Dont Panic Backdrop from Paleto at the EQUAL10 Event

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Fiona hair from the Magika

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

What can I say

What can I say

I’ve not been feeling the greatest this past week. I’ve slept on and off the past few days. Hence no blogs or videos. Apologies.

I’m feeling disturbed to the point that I have to lay here in bed writing this. It’s so late but I slept so much today I’m now wide awake.

Remember the Mandela Effect?

It feels like currently right now the world is experiencing this.

People are genuinely believing this pandemic doesn’t exist and it’s a form of control by governments! The other side (people like me) thinking vastly differently and that we need to eradicate this.

No this doesn’t refer to two sides of my mind. This is about two individuals living the same time but walking a different but same path. Seeing the same things but the perceptive belief is vastly different.

It is quite scary how there are the people like me who are understanding what is going on and what we need to do. It’s the others that scare me. They’re so caught up in their theories and truly believe them.

It’s a form of insanity to me to hear how people believe, truly believe that governments are doing this to control them. What on earth are these people listening to?

There’s no logic in their defence and not for one second do they notice the glaringly obvious . What government chooses to lose its economy willingly? Why?

I’m not keen on politicians at the best of times. They’re all flawed with one or other things. However I’m not daft enough to believe governments around the world are deliberately sabotaging their people and economies to gain some kind of mind control over their populations.

That sounds a little bit like cray crazy to me. Ok. A lot!!! So explain to me this vastly different set of views? How did it happen? Where did it start?

I have a theory. The Mandela Effect. It’s out of control. It’s slowly seeping and spreading and dividing people.

You can see it in not only the Pandemic but also the very divided cultural and social beliefs.

It’s the year 2021 and we have just stepped 5 feet back against the direction we were meant to be heading

Does that surprise me at all? Not really. Humanity hasn’t learnt its lessons yet and has somewhat of a long journey to go.

Humans are their own worst enemy at times and led by the snout usually. Humans have a tendency to gather and pack into groups, often without any real tangible reason than the sense of belonging.

Mix that with a tablespoon of social media, a drop or two of suggestive subliminal media and what to do you get? A pack. Blindly following.

I’m going to call it the Two Step Effect.

It’s almost like a dance whereby the two packs run to a drum beat alongside each other. Yet they dance different beats to the same drum.

Whose drum is right and whose is wrong?

Credits:-

Zulayda dress from Le La at the Designer Showcase

Forged Nails from Cazimi at the Designer Showcase

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Soiree hair from the TRUTH VIP group

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Suzy Lipstick (for Catwa HDPRO) from A R T E at the eBento

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Imagine

Imagine

Let’s pretend we are already starting the summer and we are all out and about and life has returned to normal. Whatever normal is. Let’s just believe it and it will come.

Ok, I failed to mention that reality has it raining right now and I’m patiently waiting for a grocery delivery.

One of the things I love about life is we can take moments and make the best of them. Turn winter into summer if we want. Imagination is amazing like that. As is use of technology when we choose to use it.

Last night was one such moment. I spent the night doing something else with a lovely friend and had the best fun. Met new friends and we just had fun!!!!

My RL friends don’t understand virtual friendships and finding fun in a new way. After a year of lockdown you would imagine they would by now understand, that in time we need to consider the future. What it means and where we may have to go.

I would say that many of us have discovered the future quite a while ago and loneliness can be lessened by connecting with people.

You don’t need to be in the same space as someone to laugh, cry and feel appreciated. I love my friend as he is the loveliest male human I know. Well aside from my family humans.

We have never met. But we talk all the time and at the same time give each other space. He is an ear to my whines and low moments and I hope I am to him. That’s friendship. Simple.

So today although it’s cold, miserable and raining. I feel ok. I feel content and each day looking forward to time with my children and friends.

In the meantime I have my VR friends who one day I hope to meet because they have given me so much and for that I appreciate each one of them.

Credits:-

Cuffed jeans from Tres Blah

Bonjour slouch tshirt from Tres Blah

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Lana hair from DOUX

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Shot on location at Petit Chat

A real time moment

A real time moment

I have those moments where I step away from the virtual and live in the reality. It’s a given.

It’s the early hours of Boxing Day as I write this and I’m contemplating the past 48 hours and how different they have felt.

With the craziness of life at the moment, I’ve had my fair share of low points recently. I’ve struggled with how I was feeling about parts of my life and what we are all going through.

One thing I can tell you is I miss humans a lot. Touching and hugging and just being near them. I believe we take the simplicity of human connection for granted until we suddenly find we are without it.

I miss “normal” life. Being free to walk amongst humans, brushing past them in the street and smelling their fragrances and trying to guess the make.

I miss walking in stores and people watching and seeing eyes meet and smiles. Real smiles unhidden by masks.

I missed my usual Christmas this year. But I made the best of it as best I could. I enjoyed me time and watched lots of films and had phone conversations.

I missed hugging my children and spending hours with them. Instead we socially distanced meet up, no hugging because there’s more to think about. Not just what I miss or feel.

That’s what I take away this Christmas. That there’s more to think of than just what we expect, want and had gotten used to. Doing things differently is just the way it is right now and it’s ok.

Although I feel alone right now, I also feel lucky. Because out there are my family and friends. My real and virtually made friends.

I appreciate all who checked in on me.

It’s just a moment in time, a blip. Life will move forward and we will learn something new. We will adapt and make changes.

Warm wishes and let’s look forward to the new year. There’s so much more to come.

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone out there. Whether you celebrate or not, I wish you all s as wonderful few days.

I’m taking time to enjoy a hot chocolate in the real world as well as the virtual. Why not.

Lots of films and chilling time.

But I’m now taking a few days away from blogging and so to give you some viewing pleasure I made a few videos for the Christmas period just to bring a smile.

I released all but one of them last night and so here they are in no specific order.

Outfit details below.

Credits:-

Brand new day outfit from Entice at the Winter Shop and Hop

Summer mesh hair from Wasabi

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Suzy Lipstick (for Catwa HDPRO) from A R T E at the eBento

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Coffee van pose from Fashiowl

Those pesky plants

Those pesky plants

My plans today. Sorting out my potted plants. Nahhhh not really!!!

Maybe I’ve left it a bit late as we had ice ice baby and in reality they look a little icy dead now. Honestly I am the worst outdoor gardener even if they are only a couple of potted plants!

Inside. I’m the greenest thumb going. go figure.

Today my plans are living the Tier 3 lockdown dream. Imagining life as it used to be and stepping outside just to check I’m not dreaming.

Though let me get something off my chest! Tier 3!! We aren’t meant to cross counties/tiers. So what has my housemate been doing with her boy friend. Going into London to visit the Reach climbing centre. Oh and that place knows they’re out of county as all climbers are registered. So who do we blame? The businesses and the people, or both?

This is going on all the time at a lot of the local climbing places and jujitsu gyms. The shady openings after hours and some during the entire lockdown!

It leaves me and others exasperated as we do what we need to do and basically we are wasting our time.

So that explains the look on my face in my photo and me trying to do the plants.

All details below. Have a good Saturday and be responsible.

Credits :-

Pearl Jumpsuit (with hud) from Well Made at the Designer Showcase

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Zoe Hair from DOUX

Eline skin from AMARA

Reflectice eyes from Amara

Suzy Lipstick (for Catwa HDPRO) from A R T E at the eBento

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Poses in the Garden from Heart Poses

Enjoy the moment

Enjoy the moment

I’m on a river in the middle of the water.

The sun is shining and life is good. The birds are singing and I’m alone just thinking about my day and what is new to do.

I was tagged in a post on Facebook today about a little house with a fence around it.

Fenced off from the world. Yes that’s me.

In reality enforced and in SL by choice.

It is no secret that I don’t tend to hangout with many people as often I’m just plainly busy. Lack of time is pretty much a huge decision maker as I work full time in reality and of course have to factor in relaxation away from a screen, life and sleep.

Not enough hours in the day you could say. BUT I’m also known as an island.

I tend to sit myself out to sea far away from crowds and love the time I get to just be alone and feel creative in world. I call it my wind down time and god me a very necessary time as often in reality I can become quite pressured.

My perfect SL time is actually either spent alone just dreaming or with a close friend chatting. Now and then I brace the social side but on the whole I’m an “island in the vast sea”.

Today I’m just a girl in a boat dreaming.

Credits:-

Fancy Pants outfit from Entice There is a huge Black Friday sale so make the most of it!

HDPRO Majer soft head from CATWA

Eline skin from AMARA

Charisma hair from Truth

Lolly eyes from A R T E at the eBento

Gloss Lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

My Shape

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Shot on location at Curiosity Lake