A little opening up

A little opening up

This morning is a slow start. It’s Sunday and it’s allowed to be. Why do I feel guilty when I choose to have a lazy one?

My housemate is out jogging her usual 10k run in her very obsessive way and I note because of that I feel a sense of guilt at my own Sunday laziness.

There are a few things I’m noticing about her that do concern me. One being the extreme fitness obsession. I don’t mean that lightly either, the girl is obsessed.

So obsessed that every single day is spent climbing, running, doing jujitsu, biking and yoga. Anyone who doesn’t do the same she has a negative view on. In fact anyone who has a extra pound on their skeleton is fat according to her observation.

I’m also noticing other traits that concern me. The level of self love being based solely on how she looks and equating that to her attitude about others. Which has a direct impact on me. It’s impacting me and how I feel about myself. Especially as I’m in a time of life that many women go through of body change etc.

This is my home and yet I’m feeling uncomfortable within it. Because the dynamic of this person and her views are very contrary to mine.

She refers to disabled people as “retarded”, gay and trans people as “needing counselling”.

I have tried for months to be like the mother figure and impart my ways of teaching her a different set of views but let’s face it. It’s not going to happen, the girl is lacking in many areas.

Oh and if you are overweight, and I mean even slightly you are plainly and simply a fat person who has no control.

Oh and if I laugh out loud reading something I hear “Calm down”. What is that about?

This girl is Slovakian. Is that a cultural set of attitudes or one related to a person? Any suggestions on this would be appreciated.

I’m considering the ending of the living arrangement in the new year. After all it is my home and if I’m feeling that I don’t like the aura of a person then frankly I’d rather struggle with my bills than feel this.

Credits:-

Only Exception top and skirt from Entice

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Gloss Lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Nora BOM skin from  Amara Beauty

Charisma hair from Truth

I feel like the donut

I feel like the donut

I feel right now like I ate all the donuts.

I haven’t, I just feel like it.

As a woman who has always questioned why in life. I am right now asking why why why do we every single month have to go through that feeling of mood swings, bloating, stomach pain and let the list go on. Why?

We simply have no choice, well some of us. Others are lucky to not have that experience each month and in my next life I want to sample being one of them.

I’m 54 years old and I’m sure menopause is in transition right now. But, whilst that is happening I still get all the feelings of being 13 again when I used to disappear to the medical room at school and lay down.

I guess that’s life and it’s the way it is. But why????

Now on that note enjoy your Saturday and don’t eat all the donuts.

They’re mine!

Credits:-

Bella dress from zOOm (has hud) at the Designer Showcase starting 5th September

Shadow hair from Truth

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Sweet Lipstick from A R T E

Tropical eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Nora BOM skin from  Amara Beauty

Balancing when it could break

Balancing when it could break

Seems my wee virtual world may be getting a shake to it.

My computer is having issues and my hard drive keeps disappearing . Not to be found in the normal way either.

So it’s currently showing, but softwares stored there have been corrupted and I’ve had to uninstall and Re download.

On top of that, the computer now regularly gets the blue screen of ooops we had to shut down and restart.

I’ve got a 1TSSD drive arriving tomorrow to assist with the issue but part of me is feeling the days are numbered.

I do have a gaming laptop but it runs like me so thats no positive!

In the meanwhile I’m just biding time and making the best of the ticking clock. Getting used to being in the middle of something then getting kicked.

What will I do? Cry maybe or , yeah no I’ll cry.

Thing is my blog and my filming etc are what keeps me sane in a rather insane world. They’re my peace and stress relief and a way of expressing myself.

Without that. Then there’s me. I’ve always said if Second Life went down tomorrow I’d start being me and real. But my god can you imagine it!!

The real Thelma, Isa, Harriet, Aunty VaGina and Beverley!

So let’s hope you won’t be forced to meet the real characters. On a serious note, if I had to use my laptop it just means meh graphics and tasks would be a lot slower to complete. We shall see.

I wonder if a dance video …..

Credits:-

Rihanna outfit from UNA at the EQUAL10 Event

Bella necklace from Michan

Chiffon hair from Stealthic

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Sweet gloss  Lipstick from A R T E

Tropical  eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Nora BOM skin from  Amara Beauty

Shot on location at Eterea

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Stepping back to reality

Stepping back to reality

The past few days have been the oddest in my SL life!

Two cries for help in the world and my automatic behaviour is always to jump in and try solve the problem.

That’s my nature and always has been the case.

Imagine finding that ultimately that with all the best intentions there’s always more to be learned and a fuller story to be told. Greater impacts etc etc.

All I will say for now is that I’m disappointed in the SL world that the ideal of living your best SL life isn’t true for many and the human condition certainly isn’t left at the log in screen.

Still I’m going to tell you one thing. But not it’s full story because again I do have a respect for privacy for individuals.

LINDEN LAB and it’s staff are absolutely bloody awesome!!!!

Dont ever ever let me hear anyone speak ill of them and of their caring for the community being non existent.

I can personally tell you one thing. They care!!!

Credits:-

Sylvia outfit from Legendaire at the Designer Showcase

Bella Backdrop from Minimal

Holo bag from Ison

Gitte eyebrows from A R T E 

Galvez hair from DOUX

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Zafirah lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Nora BOM skin from  Amara Beauty

 

Virtual blogger rant!!!

Virtual blogger rant!!!

Wake up and smell the tangerines!!!

That’s what I actually pictured in my head doing this photo but then things came to my attention and for some reason it seemed quite fitting.

I’m not referring to a certain event in this blog as frankly I do not wish to taint the gorgeousness of this outfit nor this lovely creator, but I   will say I work with a number of creators and events managers who behave in a very professional fair way. If I have ever had issue believe me I wont let it sit I deal with it. So those that I blog for I appreciate with all my heart for their professionalism.

 

I have removed the video as I was approached by the person this affects to do so and because I value this person as I do I have done so. . Is it gone. No it sits on my hardrive.

I will be discussing the issues surrounding copyright etc and will liaise with other vloggers and long time bloggers on this for the benefit of all the bloggers and vloggers out there.

Let me say to you all now. If you are having issues in Second Life and feel you are pushed into a corner and have to jump two foot higher than you realistically need to.

You dont! Reach out to me and I will happily talk to you and offer some advice. At the end of the day no one ever needs to feel pushed into any corners because of any reason in this virtual world

You have rights in reality and you have rights in virtual reality.

I leave the blank video down below as a reminder that my words were very loud and clear in that video.

Video:-

Credits:-

Jonelle Dress fromI M Collection

Inga necklace from Kunglers

Elena hair from eXxEsS

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Gloss Lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Nora BOM skin from  Amara Beauty

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The Zooby animesh stroller

The Zooby animesh stroller

Thelma is back with her idea of a tutorial.

She is over her COVID hair dilemma and looking like her normal sassy self.

Trevor hasn’t grown much, poor child, destined to stay a baby.

But he has a new stroller! Thelma has a new attitude. Between the two, life is back to normal,

Video:-

Credits:-

Marcella outfit from Heroat the Designer Showcase

Soft Lashes from A R T E

Halo hair from KNOX

Simone head from Lelutka

Lara mesh body from Maitreya

Natural lipgloss from A R T E 

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Isabelle skin  from  Amara Beauty

Animesh Stroller from Zooby

Trevor from Zooby

Shot on Location at Motorheadz Cafe

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EQUAL10 Summer ish haul

EQUAL10 Summer ish haul

Lord I set out the video to this last night and youtube decided to have some weird glitch.

I waited thinking ok today it should have cleared but it hasn’t so I had to reupload.

What you may ask. Basically it duplicated a section of my video. Like the broken record me speaking over again.

Frankly I’m pretty sure no one wants to listen to my waffle when they just want to check out the attire.

Here have it again and do admire my fine moves. They’re pretty good if I must say so myself.

Video :-

Credits:-

Courtney  outfit from Una at theEQUAL10 Event

Vivid hair from Truth

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Gloss Lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Nora BOM skin from  Amara Beauty


PLAY FREE

The hills are alive

The hills are alive

Good morning world. I could potentially sing “the hills are alive with the sound of music”.

But, they’re not. They’re drowning in rain and and nothing like this view my virtual me is having.

I have actually made a video but that will go onto YouTube later today because frankly I had a date with a show I wanted to watch. Well a series. The Act.

The true story of a mother who seriously could have done with some psych help before destroying her daughters life.

I’m only at the end of episode 1 and already I want to slap that mother and keep on slapping her.

However the end of episode 1 when the daughter climbs out of bed, cracks her feet and back as she walks to the fridge certainly sent a shiver.

The outfit I’m adorned in is at the Deesigner Showcase and has a hud. Just saying….

Video:-

Credits:-

Hung up t shirt and shorts (has hud) from Entice at the Designer Showcase

Kitten hair from Truth

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Gloss Lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Nora BOM skin from  Amara Beauty

Shot on location at Little Santorini

Be a better you

Be a better you

Have you ever looked in the mirror and analysed yourself and wondered what you would be like if you were not born into the body you currently reside in or were born into a different time/circumstance?

I have, many a time. In fact I often do, consider if I was in another form, would I be any different as a person than I am now?

I believe that our core person is who we are, our goodness and sense of humanity. But our circumstances shape our outlook and influence our view for whatever reasons. But none the less, our core is who we are and should be.

Do I believe I have a right to blame circumstance upon my actions? No.

I grew up with violence, rape, racism and feeling like an island in the sea. I’m still that island in the sea, because that is who I am. Responsible for myself. I learn to enclose and remember who I am. I disassociate from blame and look to find truth instead.

Do I use those experiences to define the person I could have been, blame all the bad things in life on, excuse myself for being a responsible decent person?

NO!!!!!!!

It’s never ok to blame when in essence you are as you grow able to take charge of your person and shape your person to be better than your circumstance.

Those that don’t, allow their paths to narrow and lose their way.

All decisions in life are a choice. Only you can make them, you have to make them, against the tide.

That is how I view life. That is how I am a responsible human.

What do you think?

Credits:-

Brielle Outfit (with hud) from {Le’La} at the Designer Showcase

Chiffon hair from Stealthic

Reflectice eyes  from Amara Beauty

Gloss Lipstick from A R T E

Glam on eyeshadow from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Nora BOM skin from  Amara Beauty

Under the waterfall

Under the waterfall

As I stand here by the falls . My tears fall silently upon my heart but cannot be seen.

I’m going to be brutally honest here.

I cry inside with the pain of a mother’s heart that is separated from her children.

I have not seen my son nearly 3 months now and my daughter fleetingly a few weeks ago with my grandson outside on the pavement.

I was excited in many ways that I’d be able to have either of my children come here and come inside and hug from this weekend. Spend some real time together.

But you see that’s not going to happen.

Because I share my home with someone who hasn’t exactly followed the social distancing rules and in turn that means I can’t take the risk. Actually flouted a few times those rules. Don’t get me started on how. The government in its wisdom didn’t consider people like me. So on it goes.

The risk for my kids who won’t now be able to come here and that makes me sad inside. I’m at risk daily and I can accept that. But I can’t accept that my children are so close but feel so far away.

Technology is ok, it has its uses and ya da ya da ya da. Ultimately I’ve learnt that the most important thing for me is to stand in the same room with my family. Nothing else is important. Everything else feels superfluous and meaningless.

So I’m sad inside but also very angry. Angry that people are so selfish and self important and don’t think of others.

I’m angry that the world is right now behaving like a cesspool of hate and people have lost their minds. I’m angry that while I stand here feeling this, the world is behaving like it always has.

People kid themselves with all their self gratuitous statements and trying to be noticed and relevant.

The protests and the violence at a time we are meant to be united disgusts me. The hatred spread through Facebook and other social media’s like a silent virus, branching out and grabbing people along its way.

People victimising and bullying and accusing.

What has the world become? Unity lasted how long? We united because of a disease and then suddenly one police officer changed the world.

The people who have used that moment to gain social media fame and presence disgust me.

The irrelevant models, actors and businesses who exploit it to become someone in a world in turmoil. To behave like parasites using the time to be on stage and feel relevant.

The criminals who loot and commit violence. The people who choose to protest but social distancing becomes irrelevant. No cause is worth that right now. We are supposed to be overcoming something.

I’m tired and worn.

So, as I stand here under the waterfall and my tears fall inside my heart, I know that no one has learnt anything at all.

Martin Luther King and Nelson Mandela are the true speakers. They both believed in peaceful protest and the power of what that could convey.

Everyone else? Missed the message.

No matter what way you want to mix it up or kid yourself. No one really knows what they are doing.

That beautiful image this weekend of a BLM protestors who go in and help a racist. That’s human!! Here’s the story Here

Credits:-

Juliette dress from Wild (has hud)at the Designer Showcase

Marie hair from Knox

Gem eyes  from Amara Beauty

Tropical eyeshadow from A R T E

Oline lipstick from A R T E

Catya bento head from CATWA

Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz

Lara mesh body Maitreya

Edie  skin in 04 from  Amara beauty

Shot on location at It all starts with a smile