I’m on the bus headed to work and it’s Friday. I’ve got through this week and my self is feeling ok to be honest. Weird how we go up and down with events in our lives.
I’m glad though as for one thing I hate feeling low and making those around me suffer the journey.
As part of my Fibro I suffer depression bouts and have done for quite a while.
I’m very resilient to negative episodes at times and then other times I can spiral. When something like a Death happens I can for a few days not process and then it hits me. Which is what happened to me this week.. Hence my reason for not filming at all this week. I can’t hide my soul even if it’s as a virtual character because my voice gives away my mood.
But today I’m feeling positive . I’ve done a lot of all the positive things this week to change my emotional direction of travel.
Taken away the things that I cherish (ie filming) and set them to the side and concentrated on just me and daily life. My virtual time has also been about no filming or blogging and just about time to me. As most know I’m a solitary dweller in world and it’s how I am. I have a handful of good friends and they know how I am and are always there if I want to talk.
Would you believe I took up running?
Not real running. I’ve been jogging my virtual me around my land. I know, nuts huh. But weirdly I love doing that.
I’ve realised how important it is that I do my weird things and I can see why now.
Pollyanna Dress from Entice at the Finders Keepers
Milana hair from Fabia
Catya bento head from CATWA
Angel shape for the Catya head LizBitz
Lara mesh body Maitreya
Christy dark skin Lara Hurley